what is destiny ....is it something preprogrammed that we follow ?...or is it something we make?......im not sure of the answetr my self .....but i kan honestly say i dont like the legacy im leaving behind me ......ive found my answer to a kouple recent qwestions ....and its not pretty , the biggest qwestion is , have i failed ?......yes i have ...in every aspect . now the biggest qwestion is where do i make up the difference?....where do i try to make what is wrong , right?.....where do i begin to make things work in my favor of me and the people around me ?.....where do i begin to say im sorry ?...and where do i begin to say ive made it right , ive made the accomplishmentsi need to ....done the things i need to ?..im lost on this part , but i guess the best thing i kan do is take one step at a time and hope for the best .....and hope the people i have failed will accept my apology and reason with the fact im human .
we all falter at leat once n our lives but for me its been a coupel times in the last few yrs . to me its failure at its best ......to tohers its just plain out making bad decisions and being a fuk up .
ill admit ive made some bad decisions over the last year , but should there be regret?....should the dirt stay on my shoulders?...or should i brush it and be more careful of my decisions?.....i think as long as ive learned from my mistakes i should be able to have some form of redemption , some people might not see it that way .....but as ive said im human all i kan do is learn.
maybe im rambling , maybe im not , maybe its a cry for help , maybe not , i just dont know any more ....im out of my element, im on over my head and too much is staking up for me to handle , im overwhelmed in a sense ....but in another sense its just begun ....i hope those who read this understand ....maybe ill get a response ...maybe i wont .......
