here i sit in the darkness afraid ta live and wanting to die. the only thing that keeps me going is my one family member that i claim the rest have been disowned by me. my heart is sad that it has come to this with them i sit here tears running down my face. i feel trapped by life but i know i cant die. i sit here knife in my hand. i look at the knife and will myself to end it but i wont cause i love my bro so here i sit alone and afraid but yet comforted by the fact the no matter what my bro has my back. as strange as it seems my brother keeps me going and keeps me sane ty bro.