elysiumcries's blog: "random thought"

i had this dream where i was in some kind of group of friends i was wandering around with a couple of guys*not like that* in my dream i mustve known them awhile i was kinda like the lil sister or something, we were running from some guy that wanted to kill us and as we ran down this dock looking thing i saw a ship leaving so we ran after the ship and jumped onto it just in time to be too far for the guy chasing us to follow...i thought we were safe til some crazy lady that mustve owned the boat showed up and told me she had a deal for me..she sat a girl down at the table on the deck where we were all sitting and handed me a gun..she told me if i shot the girl in the arm we could stay on the ship but if i didnt she was going to throw us off into the water i assume...so i shot her in the arm after hesitating for a few and i actually thought of a spot to do it where it wouldnt be as bad she looked dissapointed at me like she knew what i did but allowed us to stay on the ship...then we docked and we were at this huge gathering of people sitting along the water we were all sitting in chairs in rows...idk where the guys were they were sitting away from me ..all the sudden a church bell rings when it does something triggers inside me like a rage like i wanted something but didnt know what or who it was i look over an see my friends eyes all black coverering their ears it looked painful then i notice my eyes have gone black and im shoving through people i dont know if i was a vampire in this dream or what but i wanted to either bite them or kill them it was a wierd effect the bell had on me...then these people show up to kill us im fighting one of them when i wake up.......*somewhere else in the dream i remember one of the guys telling the other guy about a shirt he got me and how its special cause im very picky and only wear clothes they have a worn feel to them an that some lady in mexico makes all my clothes especially for me and on the picture of the lady is my maiden name*

so yeah this is how i dream in full color an i usually remember it all of it when i wake up lol so i keep a dream journal and i thought id share one with you guys lmao maybe ill wirte more idk ...maybe i should see a psychic lmao

you can sit and hear it you can play it on any instrament

but you can never touch it

it can float along carried by the wind in a lost chord drifting

it can touch you and you can feel it a faded reverb

but you cant hold it in your hands

the only part of you that can truly touch music

is your emotion your memory

you can mix it and spin it

you can carry it around in a box or phone or cd or record

but like the wind you cant grasp it and keep it

its not cold but it can make you sad

its not hot but it can make you angry

its not wet but it can make you cry

it cant tickle you but causes bursts of laughter

it can remind you of times you seem to forget

a single song is like a time machine

you hear it and remember and you either smile or turn it away

we use music to set time and place

people with faces

weddings funerals parties dances

music is life after death and a voice when you cannot speak

and yet you cannot touch it and it is never touched by you

its like a fan dance without the fans and no ones dancing

its like holding a spot light over every flaw you see and saying accept me

its like a candle without a wick yearning to be set afire but its windy outside

its like walking down the beach holding hands then seeing its your reflection in the water

its like breathing after a long hard laugh and holding your sides because they hurt now

its like crying at the wierdest moments for no reason at all other then some dumb comercial

its like flying with nothing but the coulds around you then the guy by you shuts the window

its like a tiny voodoo doll that everyone owns but you and they carry pins with a single smile

its like trust and betrayl got married and bore love but the meaning got lost in divorce

its like an empty bed that looks so comfy until you roll over and see its cold on that side

its like seeing your childs eyes when they smile or hearing them laugh or cry..

the way i see it...its like life..

im confused alot right now ......its crazy