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The trail left from a fighter jet.
Do you suppose they meant to do that?! LOL
HA!! Got ya in here!!
Ok, here's a random pussy
My weird cat, Syxx: 
I'm on unemployment....which I call unenjoyment.
I have applied to have my checks automatically deposited into my bank account FOUR fucking times!!
Twice by mail and twice online.
So I go out to my mailbox to get my mail and what do I find??
Another fucking check!!
GodDAMMIT what do I have to do??
How fucking hard is it to push a few fucking buttons and have my check direct deposited??
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
k, rant over, resume lives.
I went to see my mom today.
It's her 83rd birthday.
She has been in a nursing home for several years now.
She doesn't know who I am anymore.
They now have her under hospice care.
Which means the end is near.
She looked terrible.
She had no idea who me or my daughter was.
She thought we were the staff just there to bother her.
That was tough.
As bad as this sounds, I just wish the end would come sooner than later.
So she doesn't have to suffer in her private hell anymore.
I wish she would just let go.
Ok so I've been watching one of the WORST reality dating shows on tv.
"Megan Wants A Millionaire."
Don't laugh, or I'll punch you in the arm REALLY hard!!
So anywayzzz, VH1 cancelled the show because one of the millionaires is a suspect in his ex-wifes murder! Allegedly, he strangled her, stuffed her in a suitcase and put her in the dumpster. He is on the run in Canada, they believe. Since this all happened, VH1 has pulled all ads for the show off their web site.
SHIT!
now I have to find another shitty reality show to watch.
any suggestions?
All I want is my happy back.
It was stripped from me.
Like pulling the rug out.
Put it back dammit!
Why would anyone do that?
Why break something so good?
If they will do it to me,
What makes you think they won't do it to you?
Starting out with low morals is no place to start.
No matter how deep the chemistry.
I would have never done that.
I never have.
You said you knew the pain.
No, you don't.
You couldn't.
Because no human would wish that on another.
Distance is a killer, so is dishonesty.
I showed you the way to freedom.
I now regret giving the tour.
No more sunsets.
No more fireworks.
They just aren't fun anymore.
They only burn.
I am the only one.
Don't forget, you were the one to let me go.
Yet, letting go of you is another dilemma.
I hate to see you fall.
I hope my hand is strong enough.
I'm weakening by the minute.
My cat Syxx is fat.
Proof!
My other cat Charlie can't lay on his back like Syxx can.
yea, I was bored.
Why am I wasting my time on this one sided love?
He doesn't want me, he doesn't need me.
It appears he never will.
So why is this time so different?
Why am I unable to cope?
Nothing about this is making any sense.
My heart feels so gutted, like a wounded animal.
I can't seem to get a grip on my own reality anymore.
The "why" is driving me crazy.
I have no one I can talk to.
I have no friends.
It still hurts so damn much.
More than it ever has.
More than I'm used to.
The dumbest things set off my tears.
A sunset, a beautiful view, the ocean, fireworks.
Only he knows why.
I am so afraid to be alone right now.
The pain is overwhelming.
It's flooding my heart.
WOOT!!!
hehe
Ain't he sweeeeeet??!!!
Thanks hun!
oh and btw.....my kid is like totally all over the Harry Potter bling! If someone, ANYone would get her ANY of them, I will love you forever!!! If someone gets her the Scarf of Courage, I will will love you beyond forever!! lol
She is geeKISSexy in my family!
How is it that I have a GEEK for a daughter, AND a GEEK for a boyfriend, but my computer, which my GEEK daughter gave me, is running like CRAP???
I have run all the fricken anti-virus crap, re-booted, and DAMN NEAR put a hammer through the monitor. Which didn't happen ONLY because I have no clue if I even have a hammer or not.
My computer is hiccupping.
That's the only way I can describe it.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
k
done now
:P
