ladyluck1981's blog: "random ?s"

Sitting in the dark, I can't forget. Even now, I realize the time I'll never get. Another story Of the Bitter Pills of Fate. I can't go back again. I can't go back again But you asked me To love you and I did. Traded my emotions For a contract to commit. And when I got away, I only got so far. The Other Me Is Dead. I hear his voice inside my head We were never alive, And we won't be born again. But I'll never survive With Dead Memories in my heart. You told me to love you And I did. Tied my soul into a knot And got me to submit. So when I got away, I only kept my scars. The Other Me Is Gone. Now I don't know where I belong We were never alive, And we won't be born again. But I'll never survive With Dead Memories in my heart. Dead Visions in your Name. Dead Fingers in my Veins. Dead Memories in my Heart

I got on this train last winter. It runs every witch way butt forword. Stops frequently at stations. I have yet to walk off of it. I never Leave even though I have made atempts once or twice. I make it to the door only to turn right back around and confine my self back into my seat. I set with arms folded and stare blankly out the window as if im serching for some sort of sign. Every time the breaks lock into place My mind says get up kid...this is your stop...its ok it will be easy.. all you have to do is get off the train at the station..go to the ticket booth and buy ticket forword. Then my heart starts to speak all she can say is do it n i will bleed. Ive alway been known to do exact opposite from what is expected of me. I tend to let advising words fade out into the back round noise around me. Gess thouse words didn't amuse my heart. I let it take over my mind way too much lately. I failed to heed truthful words from family and freind whom know all to well how blind i can become when my hearts involved that and how fragile it can be sometimes. I put myself here and now i don't know wheather i should stay or go. my heart refuses to let me out of my seat. My mind tells me to jump the trains if all else fails just jump the trains!