ATL Artist and Psychic's blog: "Random Rantings"

Taking out the Trash First off, I want to say I never had had as much as life as I had here in WA state and I have met some great women and granted the fact is that many I dont speak to anymore but I still think highly of them from Sara all the way to Kristin have had some sort of impact on my person in a positive light. But I cant help but thinking of some recent trash I have to take out which will result in some deletions if they piss my off enough. I have had my share of flakes and my share of bitches to deal with. The thing is though which is human to say the least is that they never want to admit they are wrong and also dodge the issue all together. My old friend Joey removed me, I dont know what the hell is problem is...and he has yet to even tell me whats up. Just because I dont hang with him alot doesnt mean I am not his friend, unlike some I know, I am not an out of sight out of mind person, I am always reaching out. Joey and myself have tried to get together but never could find the time due to my shifting schedule and after my hectic and painful holiday and my cash flow has finally returned, I then notice him off my list. Montine: Woe to you my friend. For being one of the first and closer friends in WA state, now you can defend yourself saying you have a boyfriend and a life and also you must spend your waking hours preping for a wedding for a friend but then again I must ask you if your being honest....or does your boyfriend not want you to see other guys? Chris never seemed to of minded you hanging out with me and even got to see our friendship in action and you both know that I respect the boundaires laid out for me. But now you are off the radar and when I ask you why we cannot even meet for coffee and chat for an hour or two and then part our ways....you never wrote back. I say this to my friends, if I cant spend an hour with you a month and I know you have some time open for at least that, I must question your caracter and your true standing with me. You dont even call me either and I gave you my numbers and when I have tried to call you....you never ansewer and I have left messages. Celcelia: For someone I looked forward to seeing my last 90 days in college and hoped to continue talking to and maybe meeting every now and then you sure have been a let down. I recall a message I gave to you and a coversation we were having on Myspace and you simply decided to drop the ball. I also noticed you deleted alot of my comments with me saying hi and asking how your doing and not to mention you never call me and I lost your number and when I asked for it...you say nothing...am I just another fair weather friend? Even that term is being generous. Monica: Woe to you. You seem to pretend my comments asking how you are never were written and never got back to me. Yea I know you live in Tacoma and I live in the north end and we will probably never meet but I do recall it was you who started the whole thing. I did make first contact...not to hit on you but to offer some advice for your person. I also was quick to mention we were too far away but you were flirting with me...calling me sexy and also you did say that we were not "that" far away. Either I am stupid or you were trying to pit my intrests in you. We even have a very intresting 3x3 game via myspace but after you had your fun and we both revealed some personal information....you simply lost intrest. When I said we could meet up, making referece to your words that we were "not that far away" according to you, you hid. All I say is this, when someone is talking to you, please be polite and talk back...dont be cold..... Betta: While you most likley wont be able to see this...I am most disappointed in you. You contacted me first on POF with a nice poem and we proceeded to communicate. We ran into some problems with meeting up but we weathered the storm and finally got together and had a good time. All seemed to of gone well until after Halloween when you dropped out of contact. After a couple of calls you then told me what was up, your comp was down and your phone was just replaced. I however gave you my number and said dont hestitate to call. You never did. Infact It took 3 calls just for you to get a hold of me and all the sudden you stoped asking me out. Just when I had a job and had the money to go with you places. Well this continued, you not returning my calls which led me to belive you didnt want to speak to me anymore but then oddly enough you ansewered on the last chance I gave you and this seemed to be the case for the next 3 months. You said no to each invite out I asked you to and it seemed like I was a last resort for someone to at least talk to. Well you then tell me your issues after forever. God childern, stress, working harder than ever to make ends meet. I understood...thinking I still had a chance to befriend you and maybe we could resume a friendship...even more. But then you start ranting about how life has dealt you shit for a hand. You claim it wasnt negetive but it sounded like it. Well I decided to help but to no avail....and you told me your situation as to the problems in getting a boyfriend. My golly we had so much in common...you were a woman after my own heart....and you say thats your problem but when someone comes forward and says he is that kind of person your looking for...you run and hide. You also continue to dodge my invintations out and even when you told me when the best time to call you was you still didnt care to return my calls. I then I knew I had to show some tuff love...to put up some boundaires which you dubbed as attacking when the only attack was calling you arrogant which it seems you were being as far as you and I were concerned. So you come back saying that you dont know me but your able to see someone caracter and heart in one long conversation and then claim to know enough about them to see what you will do with them....well your statement did sound like a statement that you had your mind concluded as to who I was...not to mention you contradicted yourself saying you didnt know me well. You also claim you didnt have much time...well I saw your blog which says you have a regular crew you hang with saterday night which to me sounds like a life and therefore you had time. Again I say this, if you cant meet me for one or two hours a month for coffee and chit chat and then part our ways than dont commit to a friendship with me because I will push you to do that as I push myself twice as hard to be a friend. Even if Betta is innocent of being guilty in this case, she is guilty of allowing the connection to fail because she didnt reach out at all and was just along for the ride as I tried hard and had faith in her. Well that is my venting for tonight. Thanks to all who read it, and a bigger thanks to those who made a choice as to where to go now with any connection you have with me.

The Martyred Soul How can hope overcome Pandora's box when hope was the only good thing that came from it? Our world if filled with disease, distastes, and distrust and yet we are said to have hope Only a fool believes that hope shall prevail, she had failed so many. Many say that I am like hot steel and that misfortune and sorrow filled events is but the blow of the hammer shaping me into my final form. I protest for I have been stuck too many times by the caster's hand. They say that my heart will harden and horizons will broaden when disfavor falls into my being But how can I stomach any more grief when a score ago I was still visited by disfavor They say that the light is saving me from grief in that he has not presented me with my companion until the time is right. But I have come to a point in life where the time is right and I grow no more patient and now the thorn of bitterness turn in my side They say that I am not the only one suffering in this world and that others have suffered worse But ask those who use this cormforting thought: what good will it do to a begging man to know others were begging for what he begged for? They claim my feelings and conscience and the forces of karma have gotten the better of me and that I am repaying for past sins…. By I ask by all the gods how so many years in solitude isn't compensation enough for my sins? My struggle reaps no reward…the goat plays with my emotion…the light still speaks of a grand scheme… I await the final phase of the grand strategy but no longer can wait with happiness. The storm of saddens approaches…the era of uncertainty continues. My love continues to evade me. My few friends are farther away than ever. It appears I am left to fend for myself. My family can no longer strengthen me, hard drink can no longer numb me….the laughing world can no longer inspire me to rise higher. I feel the rose of life is now straggling me with her throns. My God why are you doing this to me?

Yet another soldier refuses deployment in Iraq What the hell is wrong with these kids? How dare they put their personal views in front of their duty that THEY VOLUNTEERED FOR! These people signed papers in their recruiting phase saying that they HAVE TO GO WHERE THE ARMY TELLS THEM TO even if the war becomes unpopular or they themselves feel that the war isnt justified. I would know, I signed those papers and remember them well. This is a volunteer army and those who enlisted or were commissioned STEP INTO THE CONTRACT WHERE THEY HAVE TO GO INTO A PLACE THE ARMY TELLS THEM TO. Idiots, I hope they nail him good on insubordination and then dishonorably discharge him and ruin his civilian career. Jackasses, they shouldn't of gone into the military if they had political views on the war.

To all those who think the troops surge isnt working BAGHDAD - The U.S. ambassador to Iraq said Saturday that al-Qaida's network in the country has never been closer to defeat, and he praised Prime Minister Nouri al-Maliki for his moves to rein in Shiite and Sunni militant groups. Ryan Crocker's comments came as Iraqi forces have been conducting crackdowns on al-Qaida militants in the northern city of Mosul and on Shiite militiamen in the southern city of Basra. Thousands of Iraqi forces also moved into the Shiite militia stronghold of Sadr City in Baghdad last week imposing control for the first time in years. But truces with the powerful Mahdi Army militia that have calmed violence in Basra and paved the way for the Sadr City deployment have been strained in the past two days. Supporters of anti-U.S. cleric Muqtada al-Sadr, who heads the Mahdi Army, accused al-Maliki on Saturday of seeking to eliminate their movement and warned that "dark clouds" hang over the truce. Al-Qaida fighters or other Sunni insurgents struck back in Mosul on Saturday. A roadside bomb in the city's Sumer neighborhood hit an Iraqi army patrol, destroying a vehicle and killing four soldiers, a police officer said on condition of anonymity because he was not authorized to talk to the media. Near Baqouba — where a U.S. offensive last year targeted al-Qaida in Iraq — gunmen assassinated a member of the local Awakening Council, a U.S.-backed group of Sunni tribesmen who are fighting al-Qaida. The attack occurred in the village of Had, north of Baghdad, police said. U.S Ambassador Crocker spoke as he visited reconstruction projects in the southern city of Najaf. "There is important progress for the Iraqi forces in confronting the Sunni and Shiite militias," he said, speaking Arabic to reporters. "The government, the prime minister are showing a clear determination to take on extremist armed elements that challenge the government's authority ... no matter who these elements are." "You are not going to hear me say that al-Qaida is defeated, but they've never been closer to defeat than they are now," Crocker said. The U.S. military says attacks have dropped dramatically — down to an average of 41 a day across the country, the lowest rate since 2004 — amid the crackdowns and truces. The U.S. military, backed by Sunni Arab tribal fighters, have scored successes in battling al-Qaida in Iraq and other Sunni insurgents in western parts of the country. The Mosul sweep aims to dislodge the terror network from its most prominent remaining urban stronghold. The operation has met little opposition, suggesting that many al-Qaida militants fled, intending to regroup elsewhere as they have in past crackdowns. In Baghdad, three men attending a conference at the offices of the National Dialogue Front, a leading Sunni Arab political party, were killed when a bomb exploded under their car as they left the gathering, police said, speaking on condition of anonymity because they were not authorized to talk to the press. Meanwhile, new tensions over the truces in Sadr City and Basra were sparked when Iraqi troops in Basra fired over the heads of al-Sadr followers congregating in a northern square for Friday prayers. Iraqi police recently banned al-Sadr gatherings there after a large cache of weapons was found nearby. Iraqi troops were deployed and when those gathering refused to disperse, the police fired rounds over their heads, witnesses said. Iraqi police in Basra said one person was wounded, but al-Sadr officials contended that one person was killed. Also Friday, Iraqi and U.S. troops carried out a sweep in two Mahdi Army strongholds of western Baghdad, the Amil and Bayaa districts, arresting around 100 people, police officials said, speaking on condition of anonymity because they were not authorized to talk to the press. Iraqi forces in the operation cordoned off a cultural center in Amil where Sadrists were gathering to hold prayers and arrested some worshippers, the officials said. Sadrist lawmakers denounced the moves saying there was a "nationwide conspiracy against Friday prayers" and a government move to "eliminate" their movement. Sadrist lawmaker, Aqeel Abdul-Rahman, said the group was still committed to Sadr City truce. "But we see black clouds on the horizon, being brought by the government to rain on the sons of the Sadr Movement," he said. The Sadrists' angry rhetoric may in part be aimed at warning al-Maliki not to take more aggressive steps against the Mahdi Army in Sadr City, such as confiscating heavy weapons or arresting key figures. The government has said it plans to do so, but has not begun any raids in the district, wary of sparking retaliation.