CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Ramblings"

Have you ever been afraid of whats next? Right now I am deathly afraid of whats going to happen once I go back to the United States with my boyfriend and my relationship. When I look at him its hard to fight back the tears. One man that I finally gave my heart to, it scares the beejesus out of me. I don't want to give up hope because it is something I truly believe in, my biggest fear is that he will give up. He has his business now and everything is going great for him, I dont want him to feel that I am a burden. I havent brought this up to him because I am scared of the outcome. For those that are new friends, I met my bf online over a year ago. This is my second 3 month stunt in Germany (he has bought the tickets and supported me both times). What can I do to make him REALLY SEE what he means to me. I swear words just arent enough anymore....