SpiRiT of EaStBoLt's blog: "putting thoughts and words down on..."

Standing on the Edge of RAGE and UNDERSTANDING, Teetering between UNTRUST and BLIND FAITH, each Breath....could it be my Last??...
BETRAYED by Own SELF, can i Ever TRUST again???
Looks down in Shame and Sorrow, can i ever SMILE again??
On the Brink of PAIN, or wait, is That PLEASURE?
have the Two Become one?
Hearts are Strong, yet Extremely Fragile
Like LOVE is to HATE.
Oh the FINE LINES, that only get harder to see.....
PAIN, or wait, is That PLEASURE?

 

oct.16, 2009

WHAT IT IS THAT MAKES ME SO CRAZY Have you ever heard theDEAD and the DYING,calling out your name...... Beckoning for You to SEE....FEEL and TOUCH their PAIN...... Demanding attention from Your SOUL,so You can EXPERIENCE..... and REALIZE?.?.?..........WHAT??!!??!!??!! WHAT is it THEY are trying to make me UNDERSTAND and KNOW.?.?.? and just as i might be close to grasping these over- pwering SENSEATIONS. from THEIR SOULS to MINE... in come other ONES......to DISTRACT.....to lead ASTRAY... and to GUIDE into MISINTEPRETATION........... not yet finished, REBEKAH S, EAST OCT. 25, 2008

As i look out in hte rain..can almost feel the pain..that i'm numbed from its touch cuz i've felt way too much. Its like a searing white pain..that pierces straight and blasts out thru my brain.. and yet........... When i look out into the bright sunlight...can almost feel the exuberating joy i knew then.....now....nothing but ..numbness..from every thing..total isolation...am all consuming paralisis..evading to the core. Dont know which is best..to feel too extremely... the good and the bad..or to not feel the damage...that i know is rotting me to the core. rebekah s east 04-06-08

My Crazy Lil Tune I spread my wings,tried to learn to fly I flew High in the sky,but only for a while Somehow I fell and landed in a SHITPILE The CRAP was so heavy, it weighed my feathers down So I shook and I flailed,trying to shake off the SHIT Just as I thought I had shook my self free, down came more CRAP, straight from the sky It fell so fast and it fell so hard I knew that very soon I'd drown,and my song would be herad no more...NO MORE CRAZY LIL TUNE!!!! REBEKAH S. EAST 4-23-07