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so you don't know me not at all not one tiny bit. i dont want you to know anymore than that. what pray tell is so interesting about a woman who is not even happy with herself? I am online because I am not happy with the world around me. probably not any different from you or anyone else online. there are a few of my very dear friends who know more about me than this. who know what causes me the most sadness or what really makes me laugh. i care about every single one of those dear friends. i am not sure why i am typing this or what i have to say. i go up and i go down. my mood isn't level. i went to sleep lastnight(this morning) restless and nervous. i woke up to the expected. wouldn't it have been so cool for the unexpected to occur? don't i deserve it after all this time? apparently i do not. so...noted. i am the biggest fool on this planet. i take so much to heart, i believe blibdly in people, can't understand why anyone could possibly hurt another. i don't think I belong here. i'm out of touch obviously. people love hurting others so much because i think its the only dose of reality they have anymore. if someone tells me i have the biggest heart of anyone they know, i cry. like i am doing right now even. when will i become the person i need to be? when will i be happy with myself? why do i type these blogs and let people know of my struggle with myself?
one thing is for sure...I DONT KNOW!
