MsSwtR's blog: "Psyche"

Wow.. I just opened up this page and I am surprised I havent posted a blog for 7 months. I guess life has kept me going.. But hmmm lets sum up the rest of 07 in 100 words of less... Do you think I can do it? Count em and see. Regained then lost a 'friend.' School was my life. Kid is growing and sprouting and I'm a little nervous about that. Had fun at a anime convention well two actually and then a concert. School consumed my life again and I lost touch with a lot of friends for a while. The holidays sucked a little cause mom was in Paris, but I met a guy and she got engaged. Wedding will be sometime this year and then the New Year dropped in my lap with me in Miami enjoying my time with a friend. Whew! Did I make it. Did I? hehe count and let me know cause I refuse to make sure I did. Besides I have to tell you guys about my first two months of 2008. Well first of all this is my last semester of Community College and I will be graduating in May with an ASN aka as an Registered Nurse. I so can't wait and yes you are all invited. If you want a written invitation mailed to you just email me your address or P.O. Box and I will send it out ASAP. Also I may be in Orlando that weekend with the family at Disney (weekend of May 2nd so Tasha keep your butt in town till that time.) The guy I met is 32 year old Ross of Miami and he has two adorable boys that I get to met in person this week. I am happy I must say. It is a killer pain in the ass that he is in Miami but I've been dealing with it. Never been comfortable in a long distance relationship until now and so far no problems have arisen. Let's pray it stays that way. Oh I almost forgot, mom adores him and half of my aunts swooned over him, and it wasn't all because of his looks. One aunts just loves the fact he doesn't eat meat and she wants to use him to get extra meat on her plate at funeral and wedding services. Yep.. she's thinking of only herself. My kid is 10 and 1/2 years old and the body is blooming. Slowly but nonetheless its happening and I can only laugh, cry, worry, cus, pray and holla because its here. It's already here and Im scared. But luckily enough me, my mom, Te's dad and his family are planning and we are ready to grill and kill any potential knuckle headed boys wanting to look at my kid in any suspicious way. Hehe but hopefully that is a few years away and I will have been at the gun range plenty of times with the Colt 44 Magnum hidden in the house ready to get 'Madea' on someone. (Rock-a-bye baby!) Oh well I think I have bored you lovely people enough. Now... I get to play with my new computer that just arrived! LOVE YA! (kisses)

For whatever reason intimacy seems to be lacking in many parts of my town. Now I do not object to being sexually active or having one night stands with ropes and chains whatever there may be but its like damn what happened to being erotic.. Is sex only the physical connection between two people? Is there no longer a slight mental connection between two or more folks to make everyone just come alive and like bloom with the sexual prowess that burns through their veins. I mean damn what happened to the times that when you did have sex with someone that you could just make a person melt with the desire burning in your eyes? Or hell what about the touches that just heat every bit of skin that happens to be touched? Maybe I may be out of the loop and am asking for too much to be involved when I have sex with a person. Then and again I am not asking for alot, am I? Don't I have the right to be desired or wanted for hell all of 15 minutes that some of you men last? Is that all wrong? I know its lust and believe you me, thats all I want but I'd still like to feel sexy. I guess the people I'm around are just lazy.