cutiepatoutie's blog: "princesses don't give head "

&i really need to vent....last night i had a party, &after everyone passed out or left i started cleaning up, which blows but it was my home so yeah whatever. hah, just as i am about go lay down for the night my phone lights up &i hear, "new message from nick from corydon" BEEPBEEPBEEEP! with a smiling drunken face i reach for it & read, ' still up?' 'naturally :)' 'i'm coming over' 'i'll be waiting' fast as lightening i run to the bathroom reapply make up &change my panties. as i'm fluffing up my hair i start to hear the low rumble of a neon coming up the drive. he tells me he's here, and i tell him to call me. as were chatting im stumbling down the sidewalk to him, &he comes jumping out of his jalopy to me. we hug &i smell 'his smell', needless to say its a damn good smell ;) the mid morning soon begins filled with casual conversation, &hand holding. we hear the train roaring a few blocks down the road so we go chase after it, missing it &thinking we'll find it down the road some more he 'pedals to the medals' it, offering a camel crush to my drunk ass &listening to the winding hit the windows i soon realize i never want this to end. after a while we get back to my place, my parents was home so i couldn't invite him in, so we settled for chilling in his whip. we talked about everything, the conversations we held was amazing, i have never, not once met anyone like him, his personality was so different, therefore i could not stop telling him how precious he is, we seen shooting stars, and he agreed that i am always right. he gave me his jacket, insisting he was a heater i let him wrap his arms around me. his nipples are pierced and we share the same humor. his hair was cleaner than mine &he's tall &skinny. he smiled at everything i said, &soon kept telling me how attractive i was. i loved how he stretched out over his seat into the back one. but all good things must come to an end, he soon started complaining how i was turning him on, and he wasnt joking, for i could see a growing bulge in his levis. thats when i gave him the, "YAAWWWWWNNNNNNN" i kindly begged him to walk me to my door, i'm scared of wolves &large dogs. once we arrived to our destination, i told him i had a lovely time, and hugged him, like most horny men will do, he wouldnt let go, so of course i kissed him, and kissed him, and kissed him and kissed him. pushing me hard agaisnt my front door, i gave in &we messed around right there. soon after we kissed good byes, &he made me promise i'd get ahold of him tomorrow. practically crawling my ass back into bed around 8ish this morning, i dreamt of nothing more than bouncing around in the sky haha............the meaning of this entry? i have recently realized i will 'sell' my body, for decent conversations with attractive men. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! i am beginning to be too lonely, need to change :(

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

i'd get some shit done

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

I HATE THIS GUNIEA

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1. alice in wonderland- in a world of my own
2. band of horses- the funeral
3. cocorosie- werewolf
4. fleet foxes- white winter hymnal
5. gucci mane- lemonade
6. imogen heap- hide and seek
7. iron and wine- such great heights
8. MGMT- kids
9. mike posner- you dont have to leave
10. yeah yeah yeahs- maps

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

i dont much get along with most of my family so this is pretty much it: my momma, my best friend jadie, and my baby girls, gaby &gracie

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

hmmmm, this is gonna be a tuffy...i honestly don't get hurt or upset, mad, etc., often BUT when i do it usually lasts a while. SO boy that broke my heart about 7/8 months ago? this is to you :)

dear kyle,
               I HATE YOU SO MUCH! you made me so fucking happy, &i could tell i did the same for you then you seriously just up and left me out of no where. we was on a level i've never had with a guy. guys like you are the reason it took so long to trust you, once you finally gained that trust &i was just beginning to be 'okay' with the fact that we was legality dating you leave me for some ugly fat lesbian....thanks babe, that really made me feel SO FUCKING AWESOME about myself. I took you to my home, i let you meet my family, and my best friends, i let you get so close to me, i told you shit i've never told anyone, i can honestly say i have never, ever let a guy into my life as deep and fast as you did. do you understand how embarrassed i was? how hurt i was? you are so fucking ignorant. i hate myself so much for letting you into my life, for getting so close to you. i spent all that time and effort for us, and now theres nothing to show for it. what gets me the most is that it was YOU who wanted to start hanging out more, YOU are the one who wanted to keep going out on dates, YOU wanted to meet my family and friends, it was YOUR idea we start dating...i never, not once asked for any of that bullshit, i didnt want it, nor did i need it. but now i do, i need you so bad....i need youre awkward hugs, youre perfect keesses. i miss our cuddling, that 6'5 lanky frame of yours was and still is one of a kind in my eyes. i miss my cuddle bug. i miss going out with you to places, and to parties. oh parties! they arent the same without you, a guy gets fresh with me and theres no one to save me. i look around the room &theres not a soul looking back at me making 'the face'. i get out of school with no sexy pictures of you in uniform, or voice mails saying how much you miss me. i still never have plans on fridays just because i'm so use to just saying home &watching old cartoons still.  and the list goes on and on.....so while youre making wedding arrangements with your new fiance, in youre new perfect little life- i'm still stuck here with our old one but i'm realizing all i can do now is keep praying to god, and beg him to bring me someone like you- only better. xoxo, youre ex- ky bug :)

PS. it seriously took all i had to NOT call the fort you was staying at &tell them you have butt sex with the guy you bunk with. HAAAAAAH, you have a fucking grade-a time over there in the middle east bitch

Day 12- How you found out about fubar and why you made one

i can't remember where i fount it, i believe someone just gave me an invite BUT i made one because i thought eh...i need to see what all this is about. SO i did &its really nothing special, i've made some people chill friends on here though- i suppose thats a plus :)

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

a FEW of my ladies <3 but the blondie is my main bitch, haha she's the only one in the whole wide world that gets me, we have this crazy bond that no one, NO ONE, gets &i love her forever for that....we're getting married someday, and thats that :)

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

happy: Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros- Home <3 i love that song, forever
sad: If I die song by the band perry, SO DEEP! and i can just sing it really well ;)
bored: Sleepyhead by Passion Pit, all of there music is so upbeat &fun
hyped: any 90's song in the cars with my ladies, hhaha all that shit is GOOD
mad: i honestly never get mad, but i'm think if i ever did- it'd just have to be some marhall mathers or beethoven. BEST COMPOSER EVER!

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

i am SO proud of myself for not going home with that creeper last night!