Jealisa's blog: "Poetry"

Distance … like a sunken ship Harbors the treasure of your touch. Unceasingly, I dive the depths In search of one more glimpse. Like a mirage … It gives me the illusion of closeness. So tormented by your absence, I forget to rise for air. Lack of oxygen intensifies my illusion. You mystify me! So with every ounce of hope I force myself deeper into the abyss. And in reaching you - I slip into unconsciousness To spend eternity in your embrace.

I longed to spend time with you yesterday~ Simple conversation turned to more than just words on a screen! ~ A hollowness burning deep in my chest ~ A subtle nervousness that won't cease ~ A curiosity that drowns every thought (all reality) ~ A fear of falling to deep once again ~ A silent whisper (a prayer one might say) ~ That fate might bring us nearer ~ Heat penetrating my body ~ Invasively almost destructive! ~ Wonder if only my imagination ~ Getting away with me ~ A hunger far from being quenched! ~ An innocence ~ Begging to be lost! ~

Was this meant to be? Maybe it was . . But I can't help being Caught up in your love Your love is so innocent So pure and divine My heart finds no reason Why you shouldn't be mine So I sit here, mind boggled With turmoil, confusion And wonder if I've been caught up By simple illusion

The moment our eyes met I knew it would be A love that would last eternally~ The silky caress of your hand in mine As subtle tingling of bubbling wine~ The brush of your breath upon my lobes As you gently remove my clothes Comenses the feelings of ecstasy As I feel your body close to me~ Emotions rising we fall into bed A little too early you spray your web~ Slightly dissatisfied we lay in rest My body signaling deep distress Not knowing what to do I begin to rise Removing your hand from between my theighs~ I slip on my clothes and walk out the door Making a vow to see you no more~ It could have been wonderful It could have been great But now for you It's a little too late!

DYING FOR LOVE In this deep, dark pit I dwell And black as the pit is the tale that I'll tell There once was a boy I loved too much I longed for his look, his voice, his touch They said a strange girl he was with And though I thought her just a myth I soon learned she was real because He was heartless, yes he was So I ran straight home, up to my bed Not one word to mother was said When father came home late that night He searched for me both left and right My bedroom door he hit and broke And found me hanging from a rope He said my dear what have you done Taken your life for one man's son He found this note upon my desk Read what it said and quickly left "Dig a grave and dig it deep .. Place white marble from head to feet. .. And at the headstone place a dove.. Let the whole world know .. I died for love."

Love Letter Dearest One, I love you, darling, indeed I do I love you dear, so please be true Of all the boys I've ever met You are the one I can't forget Your heart is like a pot of gold Hard to catch and hard to hold In my dreams our lips have met Just you wait, I'll get you yet If I go to heaven and you're not there I'll paint your face on the golden stair So all the angels will know and see What you, my love, mean to me If you're not there by judgement day I'll know you've gone the other way I'll give the angels back their wings Golden harp and everything To prove to you my love is true I'll go to hell to be with you.

Thinking of you Curiosities break lose Questions unanswered The silk of your lips Could they be like imagined Will your touch be as Electrifying as my dreams The possibilites of your fantasies I will them to be as dark as mine Can I trust you to know what to do When i'm bound, eyes covered And shaking in anticipation Can you torture me in ways That only foreplay deems excruciating Have you visioned me Biting into your shoulder To keep from screaming out When I finally reach the point Where I can't take anymore Will you push my limits .. When I beg you to stop Can you keep going - Ignore me Because you know I can't resist Just a little bit more Will you take me in every way And make me yours

I beg you for flowers ~ But like the petals ~ I wilt ~ You plead for forgiveness ~ I overwhelm you with guilt ~ I hope to forgive you ~ But the feelings are chaste ~ I pray for your touch ~ Only to hide from your face ~

Heartache thundering Life starved of bliss Love stolen away Famished, dismissed Loneliness takes over It's you that I crave Mourning in silence I crawl into my grave

In Love ~ I'm destined to failure ~ I Fall ~ Too hard ~ Too fast ~ Too deep ~ I Give ~ More than I have ~ You Take ~ My heart ~ And in time ~ You let it go ~ Without a thought I Search ~ And find only pieces ~ How Many Times ~ Can I repeat this cycle ~ Until there is no more left And I ~ Slip into nothingness ~