Lady Persephone's blog: "Poetry"

Please Love take me away,

Release me from all this confusion and pain.

This constant feeling...these constant actions,

The things i think...i cannot explain.

I cannot continue on like this,

Everything is far from being ok.

Because i am not the type to fight back,

They see me as the easy prey.

Every day my sanity is tested,

And my walls start to be built once more.

If things remain the same,

I will be even more closed up than I was before.

So please my Love take me away,

Give me Your guidance, Your comfort, Your care.

Help me feel safe again,

Please let me know You will always be there.

 

-Ravyn-

This poem is dedicated to my piece of crap ex. That is all I have to say.....

 

 

Why do you lie to me?

When I get upset...

Is that what you want me to see?

The twinge of sick I suddenly feel,

When I know the lie you tell,

You try harder to conceal.

But you dont realize..

That I have done this before.

So I know at the end,

What is going to be in store.

Do you like making me feel this way?

Do you like to show me how easily one can betray?

Please stop doing this to me,

I say this with a sigh,

I think you should let me be...

Leave me alone to die.

 

Lady Ravyn

Why am I always confuzed, Why am I never satisfied..even when when things go my way? I fight for things that mean a lot to me... But when I finally get what I want....there is some kind of emptiness... I can't explain it.... Maybe it is because I have been let down so much in the past.... That I am used to it... I hope that this phase ends... So that I don't lose what is most important... Tanya Lanea Carson

Even though I am doing well, I feel myself slowly dying. I am always happy...feeling alive, But I seem to always be crying. Somehow somethings not right, Something is very wrong. I've noticed it when I sing, There is a bad note in my song. But soon the sad part of me will pass, Because I am with you. This is one of the many things, I know you will help me through. Tanya Lanea Carson

Lately I have felt like crying, But I am unable to shed a tear. There are many things I have been thinking about, And a lot of those things I fear. I am finally at a place in my life, Where I feel like I belong. And I feel like, I cannot do anything wrong. But one thing worries me, And if it happens I don't know what I am to do. I don't want to mess up what I have, I don't want to do anything to lose you. You care about me very much, And the feelings towards me are real. And the what I feel for you is true, And that is something I will not conceal. I hope I do not lose you, You are the one for me. You are the one that takes my darkness away, And helps me again to see. Tanya Lanea Carson

As I lay here trying to sleep, Trying to hold back the urge to weep. So much damage has been inflicted on my heart, By people who enjoy tearing it apart. A lot of things said in vain, Causes my self-esteem to be slain. A happy person is what I let everyone see, I don't let people see the real me. Persephone

Everything I have ever hoped for, Has all fallen completely apart. Should I give up and say I'm through, Or should I trust my heart? I don't know the answer now, I may never know it at all. I may stay strong and keep my faith, Or I could lose balance and fall. My friends all try to help me, But it doesn't affect me at all. They want me to be happy again, They don't want me to stall. They worry about what I might do, They want my life to be spared. I don't know what is in store for me, And I am at this moment scared. Because I never before have felt this way, I hope that I get better, And out of this depression fall. Or I might do a drastic thing, And I might not be living at all. © Tanya Lanea Carson 2006

I am waiting in the darkness.. No light shining through. No one here to comfort me.. I am waiting here for you. I don't know where I am.. I am dazed and confused. I don't know who will help me now.. Somehow I feel used. I feel no sadness nor happiness.. I feel nothing at all. I wonder if a slight and gentle breeze should blow my way.. If it would make me lose balance and fall. Will the one I am looking for save me... Before it is to late? Or will that person forget me and leave me in this darkness to stay, If that is so, I already know, that it must have been my fate. © Tanya Lanea Carson 2006

So many thoughts, Go through my head. They are mosty about, What has been said. Many hurtful things, Have been directed towards me. They look at my appearence, And say what they supposedly see. From those harsh words, I see my real self now. I believe what they say, Others all know now. They tell me that I'm ugly, And very overweight. They say that I'm not good enough. Their thoughts are full of hate. My self-esteem lessens, With each verbal blow. And my true feelings, Are what I am afraid to show. It is because I am afraid to speak, Because I will be put down more. And I will feel even lower, Than I was before. There are other things that are said, That eat at my brain. They hurt me so badly, That I cannot even explain. I am called a dirty whore, When I try to look good. I then go back down, Like they know I should. I sit here in saddness, Taking emotional shoves. And I eventually think to myself, I am someone that nobody loves. I feel I am worthless, By what I am told. And if this continues much longer, My heart will grow cold. In attempts to shield myself, From anymore anguish and pain. I am always quickly stopped, By more words said in vain. For these many reasons, I don't trust anyone at all. And whenever someone compliments me, I get scared and stall. I think that if I let my guard down, And believe whatever they say. That I will be open to emotional damage, And again I would be the prey. So I am here now, In a constant depression. I don't let anyone see what I think, I don't show them any expression. I am going to keep my shield around me, No matter what the cost. Because I am afraid, That more of my spirit will be lost. I need someone to be there, Who will only bring me love. I ask and pray this as I look, Into the sky above. Until then I will keep myself, From any kind of harm. Until someone caring comes along, And help my shield to quickly disarm. © Tanya Lanea Carson 2006

Out with the old....In with the new. Out with the ones that chose to be untrue. In to the ones that wish to not part... And the one that won the key to unlock my heart. © Tanya Lanea Carson 2006