Crystola's blog: "Poetry in the making..."

Alone in the darkness that is my soul

Not ready to move on but needing to

Pondering about who I really am to you

Tired of waiting so I hide behind my walls

No one will ever get through ever again

Invisible barely existing 

I go on about my daily life, shrouded behind a fake persona

When home in my comfortable safe haven of what has now become my safety blanket I sit in the dark

Pondering what could of been but will never be

You claim you want help for your current issues; yet you seem to think that it just comes to you. I'm here to tell you ...keep dreaming, it's not that simple. Suck it up, Man up, and grow a goddamn pair! The illness will forever own you if you keep up your life in such a manner. You don't just wake up one morning and *poof* you're magically cured! It takes time, effort, and yeah...there will still be disrepair. My words of wisdom and advice to you would be this: STOP FUCKING DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING IF YOU ARE HONESTLY AND IN FACT WANTING IT ALL TO JUST DISAPPEAR ...YOU ALSO HAVE TO BE SINCERE!