Beautiful Sinner's blog: "poems"

hERES A POEM I WROTE IN HONOR OF MY SONS DAD AND FOR MY SON!!! My daddys hands hold me really tight He squeezes me and tells me it will be all right. My daddy puts me down and holds my little hand My daddy says softly in my ear while im gone your the man. My daddy stands tall, taller then mommy and me My mommy loves him and everyone can see. My daddy lets my hand go and wraps them round my mommy. He loves my mommy he told me so and hesays she pretty to. He holds her close as she cries and whipes her tears away. My mommy cries and sqeezes my daddy begging him to stay. My mommy in her jeans and tee my daddys in his army greens My daddy leaves today he was given a mission to keep us all free. My daddys like superman hes strong and brave. My daddy heads to the plane as he turns and waves. My daddy waves till i cant see him no more. my mommy holding me while her tears fall to the floor. Daddy is our hero hes a soldier brave and true. My daddy never made it home, you see died for me and you. I have my daddys tags i wear them every day. I am the man now i have to be strong and brave. My mommy says daddy sees me and hes proud of me to I know my daddy is watching me he helps me make it through. I love my daddy, though his hands are much bigger then mine But some day Ill be that Soldier waving down the line. My daddys my hero hes brave and true My daddy looks on protecting me to. I see him when i pray i see him when i cry. He tells me not to be sad, but i need him by my side. Ill always be here for you by your side my little man Take care of mommy for me she needs you to be the best you can. Hug her for me will ya kiddo i miss her oh so much i miss her hugs her kiss and her gentle touch Let her know im watching her and holding her through the night Your the man now my son you tell mommy it will be alright! TRK 2007

To the outside she looks ok, everything seems so good to me i see pretty pieces where a strong woman once stood. Shes lost shes broken no one knows of her pain Shes walking alone tangled and hurt through the cold freezing rain. Never to look up and seeing nothing but the ground shes tired lonley and helpless with no one else around. Many mistakes have followed, many regrets remain how can she over come this how can she get rid her pain? No answers follow, questions left unanswered no one to lend a ear. how can she put this past behind her when its all darkness in here? She tries to put the pieces back to fix what has been broken. Shes not that strong he holds her soul as his beautifull little token. They tell her to be strong 2 just hold on a little longer. With every breath she takes she knows hes even stronger. To her weakned knees shes falls begging to be let free. she begins to pray not knowing if he ever will see. Not knowing what to say not knowing where to run. Looking up she sees him standing there knowing he has won. Beautifull Broken pieces lay before and man who has no soul or heart Hes cold mean and visious and has torn her all apart. It becomes so very clear to her shes never had a chance. He took heart and ripped it out without a second glance. The pieces are still broken some never can be mended. She walks alone and helpless wishing it had all ended. Still here in pieces i sit telling you my story. there is no happy ending 4me here there is no glory. Beautifully Broken i am and i can never be the same. this is my life my story this isnt a silly game. im here alone 2 watch the sky looking for a clue. little did i know the answers to my questions were always you. You have left me here in piecies, shattered by your feet. You kick them aside you lie,hide and cheat. Im broken now and never will i ever be complete !

Hate I woke this morning upset and weak. I looked at my kids and just couldn't speak I try so hard and fail everytime I look to the future to get through the past I look to you to help me get through through the pain through the tears what am i doing what have i done I cant tell u my secret and it hurts everyone i cant let u know because im so afraid Please forgive me , please understand for i to have hated everything that i am! trk

You cant find me im that hole in your heart the emptiness in the air im the chill you get when no ones there you cant find me because i am no where to be seen im the dark during the day, the clouds at night im that urge to run im the pain u run from you cant find me cuz i am nowhere to be seen Im the darkness that covers you in bed while u sleep at night im the reason u scream in fear all through the night you cant find me because i am no were to be seen You can not see me but u know im there you cry and wish for me to disappear But this thing u run from is none other then you your fear your dreams its all you u cant find me im no where to be seen u are your pain you are your fears run run away so no one can hear u cant find be because im no where to be seen

In My Sons Shoes He looks at me for answers; he's looks at me for wisdom.The touch of his mother hurts him, the love she has for him he does not know. Life has taken my Childs innocents, taking his beautiful little soul.Quietly he suffers not knowing what to say. Trying to be like others but gets pushed away.Walk in my sons shoes,Know his pain, know his life, know his smile Know that one day it could all change.He's come so far yet seems never far enough for he always says "mum ill never be good enough"It takes all I have got not grab him and hold him, I know I cant I know it hurts him, I know he wishes to be different. Walk in my sons shoes know his pain, know his life, and know his strengths know that your life will never be the same. TRK For my son Devin J. Kohl diagnosed with Autism @ 2 1/2yrs old

For You Id Walk for days To find that cure For You I will give my heart true and pure For You Id take on a million bad dreams For You Id swim across a 1000 Seas For You Id give my life to save yours For You Id give anything to take away the pain For You I stay here, Facing both our fears For You I have cried a 1000 or more tears For You I will fight till I cant fight no more For You I will Fix the heart that has been torn For You This oath I have sworn, For You I will be true an from now till forever; I will Always Love you!!! TRK 2007 Jeff U have been here for me when others looked away. Ur my rock! Thank you

So many promises broken to many words left unspoken you hurt me really bad I cant forgive you nor will i forget I now have someone new and true Someone I can trust an tell all my dreams to He stays by my side no matter what path i choose Hes there when i need him hes there with open arms Hes ready to face the days and nights with me He tries his best to shield me from the pain He so many things and i cant name them all He's My best friend, My world, My love, Hes My all.... to Jeff my rock who keeps me going everyday!!

Here I walk alone on this dark, cold and scary path. What a silly stupid little girl, i thought we would last. I waited, i wondered, I cried, I fell apart inside and never let it show. Im not sure what went wrong, Im heart broken, Im not sure i want to know. I gave You everything, I tried to be strong. I gave my love while you gave me hope. I look back and no regrets of us i swear. Im sorry for not being there. You needed me and i back away, you wanted me yet i was afraid to stay. Im not good at this hole relationship thing, i have never felt so unsure Im scared to walk in this dark, im scared now of all the pain u have endured. Im not saying i didnt try or the words i said were fake. Im saying im sorry , sorry for being your mistake. ill leave you now with many hopes, happiness and beautiful dreams for you I leave knowing that till the end of time Ill always wish id be beside you. My rock, my life my love my dream, This is always so f**ked up for me The words we shared the love we had the hole world got to see To me your were real to me you gave me hope knowing i had so much to gain I walk alone in the cold dark rain, I just wish i could leave with all of your Pain!

Alone in the dark i sit here in peace i wait for your touch an your soft sweet kiss i try not to cry while sit here all alone i keep looking around and no one is home why do i do this why do i put myself through pain why do i sit here knowing i have nothing to gain why do i feel all this sadness and pain why cant i let go why cant i just move on please someone help me please help me go on