MsPuppie's blog: "Poems"

The same song, but a different melody...sung slightly off key.. The same color, but a different shade...not quite as pretty.. The same style, but a different size...it doesn't fit right anymore.. The same words, but different meaning...they have lost their passion.. The same hearts, but different paths...they have lost their way... The same moonlit sky, never changing...ever beautiful... Lead them back home.

All my life I've spent searching for the pieces, The missing pieces that would make me whole again. Every time I thought I found something, In just a moment it was gone, Tearing more pieces of the puzzle away. Before I met you there was purpose but no reason, There was vision but no clarity, There was time but no fulfillment, There was love but no passion, There was existence but no life. I have found the missing pieces in your heart. Were they there all along? I may never know. Within you I have found the trust, the joy, the faith, the hope and the will to live again. The Puzzle that was my tortured soul is now complete.

The winds have changed direction The nights have grown cold Overwhelming my senses Chilling my soul Icy fingers of dread Touched me in a dream “Beloved..” he whispered But spoke not to me Unsure how I missed them The signals and signs Its true what they say Love really is blind I am merely a vehicle A means to an end Enlightened and humbled My heart now may mend My trust I gave freely My love for him pure Yet I’ve only one regret Of this I am sure The time that we spent The joy and the love Not a curse on my heart But a gift from above But the sadness I see In the eyes of my child Reflections of mine There’ll be no denial My pain will subside I am strong now, it’s true My strength is for them My children, and you The healing of family This task I now own For suffer the children The ignorance of the grown I awoke from my slumber Unsettled and broken Fragmented memories of Promises unspoken It was only a dream A twisted reality Lies of sleep cannot hurt me The truth sets me free What you see when you look in my eyes, Love, is real Fear no longer binds me I’ll not hide how I feel

The fine line between dreams and reality A mix of confusion and complete clarity Constantly questioning my own mortality Unfulfilled longing, making my heart bleed Darkness enchains my deepest misery One bite, my love, set my soul free.....

I've been at here at this very same crossroads before At least once in my lifetimes gone by, maybe more The choices the same, past decisions unclear The difference this time, is the voices I hear Guidance is present, my soul is afire Pure energy lighting the path I desire I've seen into my future, by reliving the old I now know the secret, the truth has been told Question my loyalty, make life a game I've learned how to play now, within you lies the blame Eternity, you see, is in my reach once again I'll not lay waiting for "what could have been" The chase has ended, resolution is near I'll stand with or without you, absent of fear Whatever the outcome, ever will remain In my heart and my soul, a place bearing your name Dependent on you I've become, but no longer My love for you weakened my heart, now Im stronger Your love for another has set my soul free I now know what must come, and my strength lies in me

Home In a time that was not a time In a place that was not a place There you were in my soul Beautiful green meadows A strong Northern Gale The winds of enchantment and knowledge Do not believe what you see But see what you believe With my final breath drawn that day I spoke your name Knowing we'd be together again The taste of that last kiss Lingers on my lips still today So many times my heart has wept With longing for you You were always there, Yet your presence never revealed to me Reborn with the innocence of a child I could not know you then I found myself once more In a time that is not a time In a place that is not a place Praying to the only God I knew For guidance, answers, healing For a heart and soul that seemed broken beyond repair And you were there... I was drawn to you instantly, though The reason I could not comprehend I was searching for nothing but hope Instead I found life Even now, sometimes it's unclear How we got here.. From.. "Hey soldier, need a ride?" To.. "Would you do me the honor of becoming my wife?" Our journey is centuries old, Yet is still in its infancy We've come full circle, my darling Our Great Mother really does listen and answer, no matter what name you call her For she brought you to me, Even though I didn't know Her or Honor Her For who She is She has brought me countless blessings in you I loved you then And love you still Forever from this moment on Eternity is our will

You tried.. You didn't have to make me love you.. I would have been more than happy as your friend.. Your presence in my life was desired on any level.. I am still me.. You lied... You promised me forever.. You told me she was gone for good... You were "Daddy" to my children... Then you left...again... I am still me.. You enchanted my life.. You showed me spirtuality beyond what I could have imagined... You weaved your majik effortlessly into my heart.. My soul... Then you took it away.. I am still me.. You're gone.. A part of me is gone with you.. I didn't need you to validate me..but you gave me renewed confidence.. I didn't need you to complete me..but you made my family whole.. I didn't need you to love me...but you made me feel loved I wanted you... But I didn't need you.. And I still don't.. For I am still me.. With or without you.. I am still me.....