brandybaby21's blog: "Poems"

Shadows in the fire Pigments of light by a flower Joyful laughter tinkling in my ear Whispers of magic that’s all that I can hear. In the corner of my right eye I see a joyful sprite In the corner of my left eye a fairies laughing in delight. Walking through the woods With my little friends all around I hear a lyrical voice I look to the ground. To my surprise To my delight A leprechaun was right in my sight. Frolicking with his pot of gold I’ll tell you now it was a sight to behold. Going to a stream To get a sip of water I knelt by a mother unicorn Watching her daughter. Running through the fields Neighing in innocent joy. I smile and look to my left I see a mermaid and mer-boy. Friends of the past I call them by their names The call me into the water To wade and play games. Diving and swimming ‘till dusk arrives It’s regretfully time to go home Time to say goodbye. Waving bye to the mer-people Unicorns Leprechauns Fairies And sprites. Walking out of the woods Out of the field of delights Walking to a bridge I look at a girl Taking a deep breath I jump back in with a whirl. Seven year old Haley wakes up with a yawn Looking around her room she reminisces About where she’s gone. Hearing her mother call, she smiles a grin Time for another ordinary day, to begin.

Tears are my soul's blood my loves anguish my heart's excruciating ache from the pain forced upon my body. My throat lumps, clogged in agony, My head pounds as if nails are being hammered into my skull one by one. My nose, red and runny my body finding any way to extract the cruelty from my living corpse. All from the pain you've caused. I need to scream vent yell shriek wail cry to let you know you can't do this to me! But, I'm silent. There are others who need me, others whom I love with all the wonders and joys of the universe. For only them, I'll dry my tears force myself to swallow my angst wipe my nose. So I'll stay silent and take the violece Until your slumbering peacefully remenising about your torture in dreams twisted and disgusting only pleasurable for you. When you awake, I'll be gone. You won't find me, or our children; we'll be dead to you. I'm a survivor; I won't ever let the ones I love near you again Whether your their father or not. What was it you screamed as your fist hit my face? "I posses you! I own you!" It's sad, is it not? That's what makes you feel manly strong powerful. Powerful enough to beat a person, worse, your wife, bearer of you children. I'll never understand your kind! Honestly, I don't want to. Goodbye and good riddance. From now on; I will not be silent I will stand up for myself I'm a mother, a daughter, a woman, a survivor.

My lovers tongue tastes the red passion of my lips. My ear hears, his fast beating drums of his heart. Little whips of excitement, tingle from my fingertips. Seeing stars, my mind explodes. Silky pink, I sigh as I implode. Angels sighs whispering my name. Sweat droplets sliding over my body, thrusting stabs, call to me. Excitement builds again like a blue flame. The roaring of the ocean once again I scream his name

Brown and purple hue. What horrible skin, Like its shriveled, In shame for what it is Dried And Dead A Sickeningly sweet Unnatural flavor. As if death has kissed your very own lips. Vile Gross Wrinkly Unnatural Death's Kiss Raisin's

One Crimson drop of blood Followed by another. Two tears slide slowly Down my face. My mouth trembles As I take shallow breaths. Regret Remorse Disgust Dirty All these, I feel in a hint of a second. My life flashes before my eyes. My mother, my wonderful, beautiful, unknowing, loving Mother. My father, my strong, caring, worshiping father. But then He was too strong, Too caring. His shadow sneaking into my room at night, A thief in the dark, Stealing my innocence. His hands all over my body, Two five fingered monsters slithering everywhere. He says he loves me, It’s just our secret. No one will know; no one will care. I care, I know. I keep my silence, I take the abuse, I plan my last defiance. A day alone, Quiet, Peaceful, Perfect. My body on the floor, My wrists slit, My eyes lifeless. I love you daddy, For what you used to be, For what you were. My last defiance, My suicide. I'm Free.

how do i explain to those i love that loves not enough how do i tell them all that i'm a fake that this is the begining of my downfall what would they say if they knew lies were my truth how would they react? If i told them all my laughter was only an act. What would he think if i said i'll love you till i die what would he do if he saw me cry over the pain he put on me what would anyone do if they saw in me what they were really supposed to see would they forgive or turn thier shoulder and ignore the person who they all loved the person who they adored how could i explain i just loved them all so much that i pretended to be everything they wanted no matter how many flaws i hid or how many untruths i flaunted how could i explain the pressure they put on me making me box my heart, hiding who i really want to be what would you do would you care can you stick with me now do you dare?

i wish you were here i wish you cared i wish when you said i love you i wish you didn't sound so scared i wish you didn't get angry at me for no reason at all i wish that i never trusted love enough to take the painful fall i wish i didn't love you i wish i could forget i wish oh i fucking wish i could just get you out of my head do you realize you hurt me do you notice when i cry do you realize you make me feel worthless i don't even think you would miss me if i died i wish we were happy like we were before i wish you wouldn't shut me out i wish it didn't hurt me down to my core i wish so much but none of it ever comes true but the question i ask is do you wish too?

Tears pour from the heaven's thunder booms a broken hearted cry. Today there are no sweet i love you's only a tearfull goodbye. I gave you a chance time and time again i ask so little from you but you don't understand i gave you my all hell, i still do but all you care about is your boys and your crew you forget about our relationship you act like i don't exist you refuse to stop doing it now i'm getting pissed everything i do i do for you the problem is with us... you only do for you too! i ask for equality on rare occasion a lil more all i want is to be remembered i refuse to be ignored i know i love you i used to think you love me to but to put it simply if you don't start showing you care then we're through!

to whom it may concern. we reap what we sow and we lose what we burn the forgotton ones are all around in the shadows sleeping on the ground their tattered wings ripped and torn many wishing to have never been born black feathers scatter all around aimlessly floating around the ground in a dark alley on a park bench these fallen angels have no home left. begging for food beggin for money no pride left the rich think its funny all our homeless on the street losing their ambition no longer feeling complete this is most of what society consists of today so live in your mansions eat your food to whom it may concern what would you do if it was you?

Nothings gone right today i'ts been like this for a week i'm on the edge of a beak down the only place i'm not bothereed is in my sleep It started on monday i lost one of my shoes Then on tuesday i just had the blues wednesday was horrible i tripped for the whole class to see thursday sucked i got locked in the library friday was scary i was laughing chocolate milk came out of my nose saturday was tiring i decided to stay home a choice i soon wished i hadn't chose sunday was terrifying i farted out loud in church tomorrow is monday a beginning of a new week will it be good or bad? i will just have to wait and see :)