Absinthe xFAFOx's blog: "Poems"

Tears stream down my face. The quiet whimpers fill the room. No one knows the pain. No one knows the fear. The stinging in my eyes burn more and more as I cry out the name of Eduardo Gory Guerrero Llanes.

Afraid to fall in love. Afraid to be alone. The girl who’s life was full of happiness is now all sadness. Afraid to live life. Afraid to die peacefully. Afraid to be insane. Afraid to be normal. Afraid to be awake. Afraid to be asleep. Afraid to be dangerous. Afraid to be cautious. Afraid of everything. Afraid of nothing. This girl wants happiness yet fears it the most because she knows it could be taken away with ease and leave her in the sadness that is all around.

Mom, Dad, I’m sorry I’ve fucked up again I shouldn’t be alive Just tell me how to live Too much drama In my life Too much to confess My past My religion My life Too much sadness But it has made me stronger I have cheated death What would have killed someone else hasn’t killed me I’m a survivor Of rape Of taunts Of life. I’ve been good but I don’t know what I did to deserve this. Someone tell me. So I can get on with my life

It’s happening again. I know I can’t stop it. The anger The sadness Oh how I long for someone To accept me For who I am I’m tired of Listening to This shit The only way I can make This stop Is by making Myself hurt Even more The cuts appear More and more I wish this Would stop But to make Myself not Do this is Like telling Someone to Fuck me, Rape me, Do what they please With me Oh how I long For someone To accept me For who I am.

The laughs and smiles are fake. She tries to hide the sadness but it shows up no matter what she does. Everything in her life has blown up in her face. She fears every day. She fears every night. She sees right through the people who try to be nice to her. She realizes that they just want to put her down again. They make her feel like she has done wrong and they don’t even know what they are doing. Telling her she’s a worthless bitch and that no one will ever love her. But they are wrong. They don’t understand her the same way other people do. She’ll make it to the top. Fighting her way there. She’ll make it to the top. No matter what people say. She’ll make it to the top. She’s the defier of the odds.

I once lived and now I don’t This life of mine has disappeared Never to be found again You watched me slip away And yet you did nothing. You just watched it slip away While you help me in your arms. You wept while I lost my life And you I thought you cared. The little act you did Was magnificent. I was clapping at your performance When you were at the funeral. I loved you And yet you didn’t love me. You didn’t love the way I was. I meant nothing to you. I was just another girl to you. A slave to your love. To your life. And yet you did nothing You did nothing when that trigger was pulled You did nothing when that bullet hit me. You did nothing to save my life. You did nothing!

What have I done to deserve this? I am just an innocent girl. Trying to find myself Yes I cut. Yes I hurt Myself I don’t know what I did wrong. But I’m willing to make it right I just write what I know and know what I write I just walk down the halls Listening to people call me names All because of what I write I write what’s on my mind Is that so wrong? People call me a Slut Whore Lez Hoe Bitch I listen to what they say about me And I do nothing But times are changing and so am I Now it’s time to take a stand and Fight For I must stop running away People can kiss my white American ass If they don’t like what I have to say.

The time goes by slowly And everyday means pain. He is hurting He is suffering No one knows his pain. Who will be next? The pain in her heart is strong She stays in her room Like a prisoner in her own mind The door is locked And she grabs the knife one more time She is going to try and get rid of the pain in her heart. Their love is strong but their relationship is falling apart. He is suffering and her heart is in pain Their love for one another is the only thing keeping them alive. They are inches to death and soon they will die. They both are hurt And now they’re dead. The girl died in her room And the man died on the street No one heard their cries for help. Who will be next?

Night has fallen again. The creatures of the night come out of hiding. Their lust for blood is strong. An innocent human does not know what is coming for her. They stalk the child of the day. Only to turn her into a child of the night. To turn her into one of them. The child walks alone in the night. Wearing a white dress. A dress of innocence. The creatures attack the child. The blood run downs her neck. And turns the dress a dark red. Her innocence is no more. she drinks the blood of the creatures. Her body starts to shake. Fangs appear. Her name is Pandora. And she is now a child of the night. She is a vampire.

Take me away to another place a place where i can escape from this pain inside i don't know why i feel this way i feel like suicide is the only answer to the pain but when i'm with you i feel like there is no pain in the world you saved my life and i'll save yours until death do us part.