225666's blog: "poems"

 THE FOOL

dont know how much longer i can fake this

smile 

because of what you did my heart breaks a

little more each day

you seem close but ur not  and it hurts me

every mile

i dont kw how to deal with this your so far

away

it hurts to breath and i dont even know

how i should feel all i feel is nothing

how come the ones you love, pain is all

they bring?

why is it that when you need someone they

always leave or just stay to say they

haven't left yet

like this is all just a game to them, they

stand on the outside wagering money to

see who leaves first ,who stays and wins

the  bet

the fool who believes that anyone truly

cares will go down hard and fast  

he  will ask but receive no answer to his question about  why this pain will forever

last.

he thinks he has what he wants but he  has

lost his way and he knows not

all he has done to suceed is all in vein no

matter how hard he  has fought

   yet again

yet again nothing is goin right

 yet again my world has shattered into a million pieces

yet again it ends in a fight  

yet again im all alone

yet again im paying retribution for sins for which i didnt atone

what did i ever do to deserve this , why am i the one 2 bear this pain.

i cant go on though this is the only thing that keeps me sane

label me call me what you want antisocial,angry, insensitive. they all describe me, I'm just bein myself ,bein me. sayin one thing doin another, your one to talk, such a hypocrite. Just playin the game you say, yea your definitely playin it. I'd just love to see you impaled on your hypocresies, held up to the light for what you truly are. at least I'm not the coward hiding behind his false ways & words.

trust is there such a thing? no only hatred and mistrust. loyalty hah there be no such thing only a foolish and misplaced belief in your so called "friends". love is there such a thing ? there be no greater falsehood than such. for to open ones heart to such invites those closest to you to view you as nothing more then a mark , someone to be manipulated , used, and abused for their own purposes. trust know one,love no one truely, not even those closest to you for if you do they betray you as soon as you turn your back or show the slightest sign of weakness no matter how small it be. hatred,mistrust,independence these virtues are to be treasured close to your cold,cold heart.hate everyone 'round you,trust only your self,and depend on only your self. allow each betrayal and let each failure of someone you once considered to be a friend, no matter how miniscule fester and harden your harden your heart, let it add to your ever growing rage at the world. hold everyone 'round you at fault for everything.