arcticwolf GreeterWiccan Ways's blog: "poems of the altered life"

Sometimes it shines and everything seems alright Everything feels good And we all know it should Looking at that special someone In the fall moonlight Smiling wide, holding on so tight For a moment it's like a perfect dream Just like heaven ought to seem But when we wake up sometimes And the clouds move in The darkness comes You know you have to let them go And start all over again Moving on and maybe it's not right Sure you could stay and try to fight I hope your strong enough to survive The only thing that's really tough The breaking of a heart Echoes throughout eternity And I hope you don't ever quit And I pray that all or at least some Of you out can just see The way that I do and what it means to me The sun always shines Even in the dark It's not always a walk in the park Sometimes it's hard Most times it's not if we only Try our best and worry not If we learn to love and see the greatness and beauty Of everything around us And embrace it with our soul Hold it tight and never letting go It would heal most of our minds And let our souls and hearts soar So let this go to your head and heart Some food for thought to begin and I will try to think of more...

Ever think about a perfect world Where the good man always wins And they always get the girl They fight the darkness within Do you ever wonder about a better life Where you are never empty, and everything Is just always alright, and there's no strife You could walk in sunlight and the joy it brings Knowing you're in the right place Time seems to stand so still Nothing seems to be erased And you are always thrilled No more suffering, no more tears Only happy times and golden hours Just enjoyment in life without fear The fraility of life, is no more soured It's almost like heaven Only we don't have angels wings We are step in step, we are the forgiven And we live in the love it brings Look in a mirror Search all of your soul Is it getting clearer Do you fell whole Maybe not, but all we can do is try Better and better everyday Nothing can stop us, so don't you cry Just tell me what to say http://fubar.com/user/1713654

Sometimes I just sigh Don't even know why And people always say Smile if only for today I just smile a bit Try just to forget All of my regrets I hold on the pieces Now I am down on my knees Standing up from being down And try not to frown Wishing things were a little different Dreaming of something better, not even perfect So how do I get there from here Empty myself of all fear Learning to move on No more listening to old love songs Have to find myself again Its not good just to pretend Wish I had someone here Wish life's meaning was clear I am always a little too late For love so what's my fate Do I get to know that joy Am I welcome to that ploy Someone talk to me Or god let me be free Of all that holds me in Keep me free from sin I want to shine just like everyone else Reaching out for a little help Need that love to make life complete Without that i cannot compete Looking at my child Remember when times were wild Hoping she doesn't have to suffer like I did Praying there's nothing to forgive In her eyes I am a super hero If I have earned it, I don't know I wonder if there's someone out there For me to cherish and and share My life for all time Or am I banished without a crime Somebody please send me some love God help me from high up above

OK, this ones a bit more on the serious side and has to do with the past (a year ago). So, anyway, 2 years ago i started dating my best friend's younger sister and we were the perfect pair. Then she got pregnant and we were both so thrilled and excited. No problems, nothing. Then we had the baby, Emily, who had red hair and looks nothing like either one of us. A month after her and Emily come home, she just up and leaves me. A month later she calls me and says the baby is not mine; but she wants me to be the father since her boyfriend and Emily's biological father is a theif and drug dealer who is in and out of jail all the time cannot be dependable. So what does she do? Tells me she's leaving him to come back to me because she made a mistake and she wishes she had never left me. Two weeks after she comes back to me; guess what?! She leaves again because she wanted to be able to go out more and live with this guy who is a complete meth/crack head!!! Almost 3 months later she says she wants to talk to me and comes and says she wants me back and her old boyfriend and the rest of her friends are in jail, her mom has custody of the baby, and this time she really wants me back and loves me. Of course, I did the stupid thing and took her back, and guess what happens again; that's right she leaves me saying she didn't know until he got out how much she loved him. Now none of her family talks to or about her anymore and she calls her brother who is still one of my best friends (i am going to the best man at his wedding this summer) and says it's all my fault her family has disowned her. By the way, I got her cleaned off of all drugs, got her away from the druggies, and was the first one to get her flowers and treated her like a divine queen. Isn't funny how she never realizes that she has destroyed herself by going back to her old ways and still blames someone else like a little child. I cannot find it in my heart to dislike her, I still love her very much and the baby who is not mine, however, all she can possibly do is come into my life again and hurt me again. That my friends is what I call a quandary.

Tired of the pain of losing I, instead, found this most amusing That if I let go of the stone I find myself more for chosing In the light and darkness using Something, and I am not alone My daughter smiles more and wishes well Says worry not father all is swell A wide smile on her angelic lips She assures me now that pain resides in hell Never to hear the angels bells She tells me there's always another Who is better and like no other One who will love without end I will in her love surrender Never to know a better lover This from the lips of my sweet child I wonder how she knows of this guile Gently holding onto my old heart She lets loose the pain in grand style Still as yet she is so free and wild