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CourtGarnet's blog: "Poems by Moi!"

created on 09/14/2006  |  http://fubar.com/poems-by-moi/b1403
Lies, Cheating, Betrayl All the things that consume us Hate. Fighting, Destruction All the motives that drive us Why? Why must we take these paths Where does it get us What good comes from it Who does it help Death, Love, Trust All the things that gather us Tragedy, Secrets, Denial All the things that push us away Why? Why must we go through this Where does it all come from What did anyone ever do for this Who are we to turn to For we are alone in life No one close to comfort us And in our dier time of need God and the devil had made a wager Neither of them are here to help us We are alone to help only ourselves (S.S.J) 2005

Faded

A young gurl sits in the dark Wondering if her one true love is still there She sliently sits at her window Peeriing into an unknown world Anger and guilt feel her eyes And she wants so badly to end this retched life But she remembers that somewhere out there Someone still loves her So she continues to sit at her window sill And hope for the day when her true love will sweep her away Holding her in his arms Stareing into her eyes reassuring her That everything is not dead That there is still hope and love between them She wonders "Is it possible? Is it real?" Yet she remembers never to question things For questioning can only lead the heart to lies and deceit So time passes and that young gurl is a woman now And she still sits at that window stareing into the unknown While the soul she was once in control of Slowly faded away into a world of unfound love. (S.S.J) 2005
The night was so cold it was making each step like the breaking of ice. Their breath became part of the surroundings as they exhaled from deep within their lungs. They headed their way around the edges of the city without a direction or turn to surely make or question. The clear sky became apparent to them when a bat overhead made a screech to pierce the night sky. Stopping in their tracks they followed the bat with their eyes. When the became invisible another awesome sight came into view....a cemetery with a large fence and gate in front.The cemetery was names "Beneath the Howling Stars." The high gates were rusted black with large pointed spikes in the top that resembled gothic inspired art. As they neared the gate, it also held a sign connected by rope that was strung rather messy but none the less very well with a knot. Tall boney skeletal looking trees made their presence known. Just past the trees' branches reached and leaned over the top and through the hand sized openings on the gate. Nothing past the lanky trees was clearly visible. Only outlines and faint shadows were of the eyes connection. The smell was of metallic gates from the earlier rainfall. The smell only made present when close enough to the cold, wet metal. To their fascination and immediate excitement they more than agreed to find their way in. Traveling the lining of the landscape design of the fence Shay began to be sidetracked from the stare she had of the passing of the fence bars. Her steps began to shorten and lose pase falling short behind her companion of the night and heart. He quickly sensed her gaining space in between them. Turning around she was standing there with an expressionless face.... "Shay, whats wrong?" he asked in a quiet tone, as to not disturb those who not need of their actions. But there was no return of words from Shay. He crept over to her and grabbed her by the arms and shook her. Her daze was broken and she confessed to feeling drawn to a presence inside, past the gates. "I couldnt help myself but to continue the surge i was receiving from the cemetery. It was strong, odd and such a hand to grab." They continued their pace around the edging of the fence this time with Shay in front of him. The only distraction He would be lead astray is the view of her behind and the arching back being made trying to stay low and out of sight. They reached the best spot to get a crawling attempt going. The choice was made so the digging began and soon enough after there was a large enough slit to crawl under. Shay crouches down lays on her back but then sits back up and turns to Elliott takes off her jacketn and hands it to him. Shay lays back down and slowly with caution slides herself under the bars. She reaches the other side as he has already followed after her and they both stand from the cold wet ground. Shay grasps her elbows and shudders a few times from the hatful bite of the cold. She looks to him with uneasiness about the chills slithering up her spine and he wraps her jacket back around her. They stand in amazement as the sight over lines their eyes with awe and udder bliss.....it was mystic and magical. As they cross the graveyard while conveying their every move Shay stops and the once presence that possessed her had grasped her attention again. He again senses the distance between them and turns to notice she is croutched down in front of the grave that ahd drawn her attention and he looks bewilderaly with concern. He too kneels down beside her. They turn from the grave and continue their journey through the graveyard. They come to a clearing where only the dark shadows of the trees and the eerie, darkened song of the wind blew restlessly through the area, and in the presence of that moment they knew this was a great place to cuddle and call and end to their search of adventure. (S.S.J) 2004

A Day To Remember

This day was like none other. A day of retchedness and utter deceit. She felt that things would get better yet little was she aware, Things were soon to become much darker. She lay in her room, a world her's alone. Feeling these dark walls closing in. Suffocated she felt with sheer dispare. "What am i to look forward to in life"? So many questions crept through her mind. Looking inside she saw herself dead and decaying. Her life was a vast barrin nothingness. She thought to herself, "for those who claim they love me, why must they hurt me"?. Laid beside her was a blade, and in her lap lay a gun. For which way she chose to go was a question among many. After some thinking, the way of both worlds was best. She gently grabs the knife and with a swift swipe she slits both wrists and watches the blood flow like a river. Soon after that she picks up the gun places the barrel to her temple, and whispers a small prayer. " God im sorry for the pain that has been done to me and i forgive those who have done it" and without a second thought she pulls the trigger. As she lay there in a pool of her own blood. Cold and empty of life. She was found laying. Softly placed with the effects of both blade and bullet. (S.S.J) 2004

Moonlit Insanity

Moonlight dances across my face Draws me back to a world of chaos Shadows of my past drawn before me Questions asked with no reflecting answer Running away does no justice For the horrors haunt me again Cant deny whats true As the traces of my sins rip at me from inside Thats when the insanity sets in No one's safe to trespass Stratching and clawing to escape But still those visions hold me back In the end all i can do Is let the insanity consume me Shannon J. 2005

Melody of Souls

Although we've never met, I feel as if I know you well. I knew from the start that there was something special about you; you've touched my heart and wouldn't let go. Our relationship has given me a lot of dreams, and now I feel hope. You entered my thoughts and magically erased all of my fears with your sweet and caring ways. Now I look forward to each day and feel so much at ease with you. I'm so grateful that we're able to share our problems and aspirations with each other. It truly seems as if you're a part of me, as if our time together was a melody of souls. The thought of you fills me with smiles, and I can't wait to hug you each day Shannon J. 2006

Searching The Answers

Sometimes I wonder What life would be like If I never met you Sometimes I wonder If life would hold any meaning If I didn't have you I have my answer Without you Dead would be more alive Without you the word 'wonder' Would hold no meaning in my life You - only you, my love And the Gods above Have given me a wonderful life Full of meaning. Shannon J. 2006

Restriction of Love

How is it That no matter How hard i try Or what i do It's still never enough When there are All these people Telling me They love me That is still Never kills the pain How is it That for someone Who has everything They ever wanted Still never be happy While they are Surrounded with love They still Hide their feelings Instead of opening up How is it Anyone could love Someone who's So unloving of themselves And still want them What could it take To get them To see That they are So special and needed And that anything's possible How is it That he could Still love This fucked up Head case of a girl When he alone Would give the world Only to See her smile Then he'd know He has done his job Shannon J. 2006

Guiding Light

Stars in the midnight sky Sparking like diamond against the light A dark sheet spread out with no ending So many so little so many so bright Only one does my eyes catch I call it my guiding star Leading me from the darkness Down a tunnel toward a glare You are the constolation Which gives me the strength To face my demons And bestows upon me True loves pure light Suddenly the sky turns A shade of blue and white A tear falls from my eye Yet i merely wipe it away Knowing that it is only one day But in the end The sight of you i will see once again Shannon J. 2006

Plainly Unanswered

How should I know how you feel, When you won't say a word? Should I guess or just listen, To things I've overheard? But please don't just say the words, You think I want to hear. But rather say what's on your mind, So I won't live in fear. You see the fear of losing you, (For what I do not know.) Makes me want you all the more, But I hope it does not show. Because showing you would make you run, And that,I do not want. Shannon J. 2006
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