I’m scaring myself my heart is pounding in my head
I’m wishing you were here, im wish I was dead
I reach for the cabinet and open the door
Take out the pills and spill them on the floor
Poor me something to drink my thoughts bursting in my head
Remembering everything that happened and all the shit that was said
Im sorry for breaking your heart for not always being there
Im sorry for always pissing you off and rarely acting like I care
I waited all my life just to be with u
Did everything I could and finally my wish came true
But I hurt you so much it will never happen again
Even though I got you, your heart I could never win
I scrape the pills up holding them all in my hand
Throw them all in my mouth struggling to stand
I take the drink and swallows the pills
Stumble to my bed and try to lay still
I hear the door open and see your face
I wish I could cough up the pills but its already way to l8
You rush to my side, you know something is wrong
But you have no idea what is really going on
I start to smile and rub my fingers through your hair
A tear runs slowly down my cheek, this burden so hard to bare
But now you’re here and im asking myself why
Why did you have to come now you have to watch me die
You rub my chest softly place your hand on my shoulder
Its takes all the strength I have left just to scoot over
I pat the bed softly and you lay down beside me
My vision is blurred, its hard for me to see
But its too late now, everything fades away
There’s nothing more I can do, nothing more I can say
I know I loved her, and im really going to miss her
I look straight into your eyes and say, babe my suicide letter is on the dresser