bella's blog: "pets"

I have been struggling with this the last week. It seems as my beagle is suffering and the cancer is very aggressive. I watched her in the last week go to a state where she was eating on her own to where we have to hand feed her. She has started having bloody noses and it seems continous. She has completely stopped using her right hind leg and I am seeing new growth on her. Tonight I was listening to her breathe and it seemed very labored. I am about to go lay a towel in my bed and put us both to sleep one last time. In the morning I will take her to the vet and say goodbye. I know she is suffering but I am struggling with letting her go. She has always been the comforter in the family. I know it is best for her but I lose a dear friend who past food and water expects nothing but a pat on the head. She listens when I just need to get things out and she does it with out judging and input or opinions she is just there supporting. Knowing it is best doesnt make it easier. So I am closing out this blog and going to love on my dog one more night and pray for strength tomorrow.

We got the biopsy results from the vet. The dog was diagnosed with bone cancer in both back legs. The vet gives her at best if we don't put her to sleep she will have only 30 days and most in pain. She is no longer eating or drinking on her own. I hate to seeing her suffer.

As some of you know about three weeks ago my dog was acting odd first losing her balance then limping some. We woke up to find that she couldn't stand and took her to the vet. She also had a blood nodule on her shoulder that he drained and the vet indication was that perhaps a stray cat got ahold of her and she was sore. We should watch it and see where it went and then if it wasn't better he would do some close observation of her while my family was on vacation. The vet re xrayed her and thinks she may have bone cancer. She spent yesterday at the vet who removed the blood nodule, a growth on her leg and also did a bone biopsy yesterday and sent them to Texas A&M. So we now are in the wait and see phase. Trying to bribe her to eat and take her antibiotic and pain meds. She was refusing peanut butter last night. So we are just hoping today is better.