Wildrose's blog: "PAIN"

You know people is suppose to be here to help you but when you ask for help some people come up with dumbass remarks and there suppose to be there to help well I consider that dumb ass hell and if I needed help like that then I'm better off by myself so yea Bouncers or whatever you wanna call yourselfs are nothing but biggest joke I've ever seen you sit there behind your little computer judgeing someone by there screen name your suppose to be here to help someone not sit there and judge them by there screen names I can now see why people is leaving cherrytap or lostcherry whatever you wanna call it because there is nobody here to help us just so called helpers your the ones that need help not ous just because alot of us is gothic or wiccan or whatever dosnt make us any diffrent then anyone else in this world and you shouldnt sit there and judge us ok just because we dont dress like you or even act like you or look like you dosnt make us any diffrent I thought cherry tap was suppose to a place were you didnt get judged well guess I was wrong once again well whatever I'm serioully close to just closeing my accont and going back to myspace or Vampirefreaks or Gothic Match I dont know yet but all I do know is that I'm not the freak here and the only freak I see is those who call there self helping other people yea thats funny to sit there and judge others but yet you call yourself helping please give me a break it dont surprise me a bit if you dont sit behind your pc looking at porn wouldnt surprise me a bit but oh well I'm done Ranting for now....

The pain Is So Strong The pain is so strong within my body I can feel my heart to slowly dieing The tears of pain striming down my face Nobody to turn to Nobody there to hold Gasping for breath The heart is slowlying dieing You feel the life being taken away from you Your love for another person just being sucked from your lifeless body Your crys for help no responce Its starting to get darker and colder All you wanted was love in return You take 1 last breath and close your eyes As the blood slowly Exscapes from your body Turning pale and the heart findly stops

I run away to the darkest place I leave the truth and hide my face I feel the run of hatred inside of me I'm trying to be something I don't want to be I'm tried of the lies, the hate, dishonesty, its fake I need to know that you care I need to know that you'll always be there Your'e turning my life out of bounds I have hit the bottom No longer able to hear a sound

I stare to the madness, I see just my pain, it staring me back, drowning me in the sadness... My tears flow, blinding me, just for vain, for no reason, my mind falling to the emptiness... I stare in the mirror, once again, I see my eyes, I see mirrors of madness... I see demonic shadows, floating in the darkness, waiting me to fall a sleep, searching a moment of my weakness... Shadows of death, inside my head, this outstanding pain, in my brain... Flames of hellfire, in my eyes, smell of death, in my nose... Molten seas of hell, this demonic smell, someone is casting a dark spell, holding me in the hell...

You tiptoed into my heart, I knew I loved you from the start, Your beautiful hands and face, A world of filigree and lace, Your smile,your voice,so sweet and dear, You filled my world with endless cheer, Your on my heart dear sweet one, You fill my world with endless fun, Togetherness each hug each kiss, Tis all of these I wouldn't miss, I love the time I tuck you in, The morning when our days begin, Dear sweet one you'll always be, The whole wide world and all to me, I'm thanksful for each hour we spend, And all the happiness you lend, It matters not when we're apart, You'll always live within my heart.