CelestialButterflyRoxx's blog: "Pain & Heartache"

Why is it that the rich get richer & the poor get poorer? 

If your poorer than dirt with no job you, (Not by choice)

one simply just gets left behind & in some states don't qualify for help at all?

Suddenly people become closed minded & don't bother to help anyone. 

This world is for the rich & if your not then you are nobody, no one & not important.

 

There are times that I wonder if I really make a difference in this world?

Times that I wonder if everyone would be better off without me?

Times that I wonder how I could have done something different?

When my friends & family are down at times I feel the pain & emotions as well.

I wonder if I said & or did the right thing?

Feelings of hopelessness & helplessness seeping through.

At times like this I wonder which of these feelings are mine & which are someone elses & I am picking it up?

 

I'm Sorry that I am not able to carry the world on my shoulders or make things better for you.

I'm sorry that I have not been the best Sister, Friend or even kept in touch.

I'm sorry that I do what I can, when I can but it just is not enough.

I'm sorry that we all have real life stuff going on that is just sometimes more important than being on fu 24/7.

I'm sorry that I have failed some of you or am made to feel like I have wronged you in some way.

I hope that in the future things will be better for everyone. 

I take things personal sometimes & those of you who know me well, know that.

I'm sorry for letting you down in any way.

I love you all & wish you Blessings of Peace, Love & Light Along with Much Happiness.

Feeling Lost, Feeling Lonely. Feeling Blue too!! What should I do???

Ok, so this is me and if ANYONE does not like it then it is just plain time for you to move along!!

 

 

 

I am a good friend, might ask are you OK, even at the wrong time or whatever. I care about my friends and those that mean something to me!! Hell I might even ask that at the wrong time or a stupid moment, it might even be a damned stupid thing to ask at time but shit happens. I worry about my friends and if what you want is a cold person who won't give a damned or not say a word then go find a fucking mouse that will squeak away.

 

I am NOT a cold person and don't know how to be anyone other than me!! Most of my friends on fu facebook or even in real life appreciate who I am and the fact that sometimes I tend to wear my ♥ on my shoulder or that my ♥ is visible to everyone and that I don't keep it locked up somewhere like others might!! I am NOT the COLD Dragon that I wish I could be sometimes, That might work for others of you that are my friends but NOT me! I have to much light in me and warmth too!!

 

 

 

I will apologize to some of you that are my friends & family that this might offend. You can call this venting, ranting, whatever but this had to be done & he knows why!!!!

 

 

Thank You All!! :D

 

 

They say that love makes the world go round,

This I do believe to be a truth.

However I do also believe that the pain and heartache one may endure,

Is actually a reminder that we are still alive and humans amongst paridise.

The good and the bad all are a part of life as is the love and pain.

Are you alive?

I sure am and will survive and one day love again!!

Why is it always the good ones that are like Angels on Earth that are struggling so much or become sick and then some?

Why not the murderers or hateful people that do bad things to people?

Why is it that murderers, theifs and and others get richer while the poor struggle more and get poorer?

Why can't someone help everyone and make them all better?

Why with todays medical technology are we not able to heal and find cures to Cancer and other major medical issues?

Why is it that I am not rich so I could break a few heads and get things going to make things better in this world?

My prayers, thoughts and healing energy go out to my friends. family and those that I love through out the world!!

 

I sit here and wonder whats wrong with me?

Wishing to become an ~Ice Dragon~ but not sure how.

Protecting others is what I do and yet,

I'm not able to find a way to protect myself and my ♥.

A gift is what love is with all the magic in the world.

But there is too much pain that comes with it and too many risks as well.

Babysteps is all I can do when and if the time ever comes.

Closing myself off to the possibilities of what may be is not an option of that I am sure!!

You ever wonder what it is that turns a child against their parents. Makes them disrespectful and just plain rude and obnoxious? You ever wonder why or how a child develops no respect for themself or for others? You ever wonder what makes a person become so bad that they harm themselves, rape or kill another? You ever wonder why there is no respect in the world or not enough? You ever wonder why the world is the way it is? You ever wonder why the economy is the way it is?.........Crooks, Politicains and then some.