So I have been finally able to reflect on life, my life since things have calmed down for Taylor and I
Many of you are aware of the custody battle that began around June this year which led us to an aggressive battle with the
justice" system here .. Justice I think not .. but with my faith and detemination I have discovered that life truly does hand out some really cruddy cards. But .... as you look at the most beautiful of days in life you realize that what it said is true. With a beautiful day must come rain along with some pretty scary storms. This is very true. It is not in how you act but all in how you react. Attitude is contagious ask youself If yours is worth catching. In 2005 when I decided after a long 17 year haul of attmepting to make my marriage work and realized the fact is " you cant MAKE" a realtionship work, you cant make a heart love, you cant make an addict seek help if they dont want it ( no matter how much you want it for them) I realized it was time to call it quits. Reaching out for freedom knowing it would not be easy to adjust to the changes but it would sure be worth it in the end. It has been . My life since then has been a perfect symphony of trials, tribulations, triumphs, laughter and tears. Strength is not something that just comes to you. It is something you must work at, and once you gain it you must be careful not to use it in a negative way. Some may think with all people go through they have a right to be bitter, this is not true. I have used my pain for positive and used it for the reasson I am determined not to be bitter and angry. It only harbors more bitterness and pain. Expierence, learn form it and move on and leave all the negativity behind. Yet, not forgetting where you came from because that has everything to do with where you are now, who you are now and where you will go and who you will be in the future. I myself have no regrets. I chose not to .. I realize everything really does happen for a reason. Aura and karma are very real! I have given it a chance and being noble is the best bet, a win win situation. No matter how deeply I have been hurt or Betrayed. I am a recovering addict daily, I have my demons as we all do, I just choose because of the love I have for my little girl that will not turn back from where I came from. What is the use in back sliding back to a place much darker than ANYTHING life can dole out to me today or tommorrow or ever . I wake up daily and look around me and realize the time to make the decison on what my day will be is RIGHT NOW.. the moral of the story? if life gives ya lemons make tasty refreshing batch of lemonade.. Life is about decisons. Dont sweat the things you cant control. Kindness is an act that costs nothing and reaps countless blessings and rewards. I am not rich but I am rich beyond comprehension, A perfect example of this for me will be the kiss and hug that I get from my angelic baby girl this morning when she awakens. Look at the blessings you have rather than focusing on the things you dont. Happiness is a state of mind , and making the choice to take a risk and feel, even at the risk of being hurt. Now that I have fallen off my soap box .. have a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!!!! and you can if you chose to ( no matter what is going on in your life)
The difference in good and bad is a decison a choice we have of control
As for resolutions for 2008 . I have none. I don't intend to change a thing because things are ok , I am ok and life is life no matter what.
smiles o
