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Image I recieved from Nikko~shi, a dear friend, and absolutely love.... and had not even known the name... and only this came later and revealed some of the same.... as I responded with my comment of yes, Go Fish... 'Do you have an ~11~?'... WoW... I 'wish'... Go Fish.. we know that ~11~ does not X is' it'! In a game of Go Fish... only if you .... wish and wish... hmmmm?
Now put that on your dish...
and GO FISH!!
I know you are not home.....
yet somewhere...
thinking....wondering....
if.....I am going to share ....
something with you....
when I am alone.....
you would like this message...
I am to leave on your phone...
I have often thought....
yet played....
thinking....
wondering....if.....
I am going to share......
something with you....should I?
Do I dare?...
Do not know if you will get this....
before....the message you so....
want me to leave...
you know....the one you want....
on the phone....the one....
you don't pick up...
but do not want to miss....
only if you could have a little of this...
a little of Mi' you known....
and you on me have ...
have somewhat....grown....
and these limits....of mine....
you may have just...
pushed....and way....
BLOWN......
if you receive this little mail...
before....the little phone message...
go somewhere quiet...
and very dark....
deny yourself....
any other outside distractions...
and please listen closely........
ssshh.....
quite now....
just imagine...
it is I am doing...
you know ....
what it is....
you wish .....
you were here.....
controlling....
THE STATE I AM IN.....
hello...hello.............
OPERATOR.....
GIVE MI' LINE X....No.~11~.........
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work I did for him ....(not all edited yet)
Tristian/Dirty Horse
OUR FIRST ENCOUNTER
Have you thought... ....dream of ....
OUR FIRST ENCOUNTER....
As, if we were there... I have imagined it to be similar to this....
while we are just all wrapped up in this little bliss...
now pay attention as if we were there, ... where?....
I have not a date for when, but this is how I believe this will all begin...
this only importance to this message I am trying to send...
You now know some of MI'.... as I do of you...
now things have begun and somehow grew.....
Now that we are past the introduction stage...
we both know .... there is connection we engage...
So, this place we have set to meet....
a place yet unknown but we will greet....
I am thinking I wont say much when I first arrive...
we have already shared much and could write an archive....
So, a warm breath of a secret, I may in your ear...
just to let you know I have arrived and I am close, and oh so very near....
I could come meet and shake your hand...
but from behind... I imagine that would be GRAND!!
If I approached you from behind.. ..
surprised you would be... looking for MI' to find...
Keep you guessing and on your toe..
where you will find MI'... that is for MI' to know...
So, with that whisper in your ear...
did you hear... ??
Depending on where we are...
are we in a overcrowded bar....??
I may just run my hand up the inside of your thigh...
only reaching so high...
Just before reaching that spot...
I stop, and it is getting HOT....
I have walked away...
now you realize I have come to spend the day...
or night... or many.....
which do you pick?.... Any?....
Hesitate you will just a bit...
gather your thoughts, only seconds while you sit...
Wondering now just what to do...
you look around thinking ... ...
Just who are you.....
Wanting to find MI' fast...
you want every moment to last.....
So in this public overcrowded place...
MI' you have found and cut MI' to my chase....
We find ourselves now in a back corner and it is dark....
It is MI' you see and I am now your mark....
seems there are others around...
but alone it we are and seem to have found...
Seems we do not notice... while up against this wall....
~X~cept... now we are finally together and I feel I am about to Fall....
As you press yourself up close to MI'...
not knowing ~X~ACTly what to say....
HELLO, THANKYOU!! & can we play...
I just bite my lower lip with a little grin...
you know what is all stirring with in....
I take my finger and place on your lips...
sshhhhhhhhhh..... and pull you closer to MI' now up against my hips....
Do you know what I am thinking.... what secrets do you find...
Can you tell MI' now what is on my MIND....
You seem to just look into my Eyes...
This I dislike much and actually Despise....
You should know I don't like for many to see...
Everything there is about MI'....
In my eyes...
you know you see what is there and lyes...
So do you kiss with your eyes open and look...
you know if you do this... things are then not mistook...
while still up against this wall, let's see where this has all lead... .
I bring my hand up to your neck, run my fingers softly around the back of your head....
My other hand runs up your chest to your cheek....I bring you to my lips...
and you are pressed up against, tightly against my hips.....
My lips on yours, just moistened enough to feel good...
just as you knew they would....
as I run my tongue across... and this being our first kiss...
making contact with your tongue, this I would not miss...
my hand running through your hair..
you open your eyes and give MI' that stare....
your eyes just meeting Mine....
you see this encounter haunting you at this time....
You now whisper to MI'... imagining this all told...
We need to leave and let this story begin and unfold...
I do not know where you will take MI'... but it will
be us alone....
I am now thinking I am scared and may want to go home.....
Yet I have played this in my head....
and I say I am staying right here with you ....
instead....
X..... No.11
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WHAT IS THE XCITMI'~11
The ~X~of 1 & then {+} SUM....
Many question MI'....
Don't be naive..
but SUM never see what there is to SEE....
Some see with their eyes...OPEN....
others' eyes are SHUT.....
For MI'...?
Neither!... I SEE... with my SOUL...
It's a POWER.. a true 'in'sight, I take it all in MI'...
and it is sometimes out of CONTROL....
How the '1' spits out for you to recieve .....
sometimes hard to conceive....
The 'MI' just tells '1' to BELIEVE....
What is the ~X~?
The ~X~is ...just a ~X~.., just as YOU, as ANYONE..
The UNKNOWN FACTOR....
The ~X~POENENT!
We are all considered or LABLED..
Until I or '1' have it UN~RAVELED!...
So, I ask YOU.. How do you dress your ~X~?
for '1' to Conceive?
For MI' ... as generic for SUM as I want to BE...or give SUM '1's'
MORE of MI' (X to the XX to the XXX)
The few I do give some more of ~X~ do SEE...
what there is to SEE....
this I do believe...
TRUE & HONEST MI'....
I do have and claimed MI" a place, a SPOT!!
I call it... and do believe it cost MI' a lot...
sometimes my HEART and my SOUL..and...
and sometimes thinking it was my PLOT!!
But it is MINE.. and it is MY ~11~ SPOT!!
The ~X~ stripped, needing nothing more or said...
Usually leaving you with thoughts that fill and dance
inside your head...
The ~X~, NO SIGNATURE REQUIRED...
Basically is the XCITMI'~11, just MI.. the ARTIST...
you may have just hired...
The CIT.. can come with fright...
but when mixed with ~X~ and becomes ~X~CIT!..then comes...
different emotions, feelings at height!!
Thoughts that are stirring and leaving many luring and enduring...
Why the ~11~... well, .... that comes from
~HEAVEN~!!
~X~ACT!ly....
It is my Favorite..and it is PRIME ... anytime...
but, being Born on day ~22~...
and 1 is half of 2..
YES, YOU KNEW...
but multiply..11*2...
and YOU get A "CATCH 22"...
NOW WHAT IS MI' GONNA DO?....
OH!! I know....
HEAVEN.... gives MI' my ~11~... my ~1's~...
just as WE ALL are ~1's~... or just ~X's~...
I ask you to do each and everyday...
~XCITMI'~11~
I SEEK AND THRIEVE STIMULATION...
always wanting more...
MORE....
THOUGHT....
IMAGINATION....
DESIRE....
KNOWLEDGE....
LIFE....
PASSION....
BREATH......
MUSIC....
ECT....
So whatever your DRESS may be.... GIVE IT TO MI'....
~X~!. NO SIGNATURE REQUIRED.......
KISXXXS...
XCITMI'~11
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I know you are not home.....
yet somewhere...
thinking....wondering....
if.....I am going to share ....
something with you....
when I am alone.....
you would like this message...
I am to leave on your phone...
I have often thought....
yet played....
thinking....
wondering....if.....
I am going to share......
something with you....should I?
Do I dare?...
Do not know if you will get this....
before....the message you so....
want me to leave...
you know....the one you want....
on the phone....the one....
you don't pick up...
but do not want to miss....
only if you could have a little of this...
a little of Mi' you known....
and you on me have ...
have somewhat....grown....
and these limits....of mine....
you may have just...
pushed....and way....
BLOWN......
if you receive this little mail...
before....the little phone message...
go somewhere quiet...
and very dark....
deny yourself....
any other outside distractions...
and please listen closely........
ssshh.....
quite now....
just imagine...
it is I am doing...
you know ....
what it is....
you wish .....
you were here.....
controlling....
THE STATE I AM IN.....
hello...hello.............
OPERATOR.....
GIVE MI' LINE X....No.~11~.........
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TROUBLE
I am taking a break
tonight and writing this blog and
taking you through a day in my life...
I have decided TWO* much knowledge can cause too much TROUBLE!
I QUIT!!!
I spend more time getting myself OUT
of trouble for getting people...
IN trouble!!...
especially my girls...
oh shit!!
Everything else is on
hold til I complete this
post!
Like I said, I QUIT!
First of all, many of you are unaware of what I do .....
"DO"!
I do recieve many emails, or in conversation over a IM chat, I get asked several times this very question. I have thought a few times on how to answer this, and I have come to this conclusion ....
"I PLAY ALL DAY!!"
"WHAT, HOW...or IT MUST BE NICE...." or even, " WHAT DO YOU PLAY?" are the responses I get.
my answer:
This .... "I play all day".... is MY only answer! I am sticking to it, because when I begin to actually write what all My JOB consists of, I am almost sure I will NOT find anyone INSANE enough to fill this position!!
I Design, Build 'things'(this will be Xplained in detail, Invent, Create Wonder, Trouble & Amusement, Design Costumes and Sew, do all kinds of Art, listen to music and sing to music with my bird, Oliver, he perfers Punk Rock Music best...he loves it and sings along with Mi', dance around my house half naked, walk my dog and talk to my dog... if weather permits, I garden, if not... in my house I grow from seed several flowers to be later planted in my garden....many other things you would not believe... I think even Magic... and sometimes when bored... okay, this my little secret.. ...hahha... it is Mi' and the skateboarding thing... I can do this skateboarding thing for hours and hours on end!!! It is in the Blood!! Has been a part of my life since young girl and I can watch this and videos and go to skateparks with my girls who skateboard, oh....and yes, my DOG also skateboards, even have skate coach for my girls and I taught my youngest how to do her first drop~in!!!! hahahhaa... Yep!!! That is what my thing is.... hahaha.... so, I will go through some of what I do and see if anyone is interested yet in this position...
oh, and once I even told a guy that this also may involve playing with peoples head's..
He didn't contact Mi' again for four days...or so...ahhahaha...
I was only joking but do believe he had to think about that for a couple days...
Although many do not ever take the time to read someone's profile on these pages, I will admit... I DO READ PROFILES to much Xtent.... I tend to like to know something about an 'I'ndividual.... so when I list the requirements for this position and also what an ~X~ample... of a typical day "ON THE JOB" is like and has occurred, there will be no SURPRISES!! I will ~X~pect you to be able to handle any crisis that arises completely all on your own and your KNOWLEDGE, ~X~PERIENCE, STUDIES, and INTELLIGENCE is all that is needed oh, and a ~X~TREME sense of HUMOR ...or you will not survive one day on job!!
Wondering now who will fill all this postition
BE PREPARED FOR DAILY THINGS SUCH AS THESE NOT SO OUT OF THE ORDINARY AROUND THIS "A. WONDER~LAND!"...
....
THERE IS MORE TO THIS 'X/1' EPISODE.... THAT MAY BE HARD TO BELIEVE... HOLD ON...HAHAHA.....
THAT IS JUST 'ONE' OF MANY I WILL GIVE A COUPLE MORE 'X' AMP LES...
since I am quiting...
Must have Knowledge, ~X~perience with all
the following and some overtime will be
X~pected!
Position will require ... the following
these will soon be listed....
Please send all inquiries to Xcitmi'~11
Must be able to be reached at all hours day or
night, holidays, while in the shower, bath tub, at the local tavern, in hell... heaven... outerspace... wherever your escape place is... you have to be able to be reached at! This is NOT negotiable!
P.S.....listen closely to the very very begining of the fabulous Chili Pepper's "Storm In A Tea Cup" Song.... it is very important .... and is my daughter's ring tone on her phone... imagine
This ringing & start at playing
" O GOOD GOD, HEAVEN ALMIGHTY, Heaven's to murder troy,
We've got a cataclismic situation developing someone get down here now!!..."
in the middle of her English Class when completely silent and it is Mi', her mother calling her!! She is NOT to have her Phone on her in class....hahahhaa...
... can you imagine this... and this loudly playing and her having to ~X~plain to everyone
"Oh, please do not take my phone... It is my MOM!..."...
YES... it was Mi'.... and NO... No ..cataclismic situation developing!! Just Mi' having to talk to her about something ... just kinda important....
YES!HER PHONE WAS TAKEN AWAY!!... but I did get it back for her only after going to school and Xplaining it was my fault for calling her during class time.... oh, shit!... ahaha.....
They ask Mi' about the "cataclismic situation developing?!"
hmmmm? Do you wonder what my Xcuse was?....
Oh, my Dear Alex&dra, ... I know there is no ~X~cuses sometimes...... your MOM is just TROUBLE!!
I just wanted to tell you I got you out of that Saturday school they give you because of Mi'!ahahaa... They understood completely and that you are a wonderful girl and have not caused any kind of TROUBLE!! (ummm, yet.... she just turn 13 years old...)thankyou...
yes, this is true!!!
well, some of it my fault, some was an oversight the school make about her art involvment!!
I will ~X~plain!!
Today marks the day my cousin was KILLED!!
By a 19 year old boy strung out on drugs and alchol and was on some kind of TRILL...
On this morning she was to meet the UNKNOWN...
who would even ~X~pect this and Flashes of her life would be SHOW'N....
was asked by my Aunt to write her last WORDS..
to her daughter, these would be read and ALL would be HEARD!!
How does 'ONE' even begin to write or ~X~press such SYMPATHIES....
Words to be said from a Mother to her now Dead Daughter, and being my FAMILIES...
So, I sat and what first come to My MIND....
What if I had to go on with leaving one of my Daughters BEHIND!!
Out from the darkness the words come and just FLOWED....
It was powerful and some light shown and GLOWED!!!
My cousin, her the same age as I am, was killed on this day by a 19 year old boy who had no driver's license, driving someone else's truck, hopped on drugs and who knows what else. My cousin woke this beautiful 'mourn'ing and was to only do her normal routine of a typical day and on her way to work. Out of no where was hit head on by this boy. The impact being so great, she took her last breath, killed instantly as the front of her car slammed into her chest.... ~X~ploding eveything inside I guess... if it was my time, I guess happening like this would be best...
My Aunt in such distraught, no nothing, words... could even come to her mind...
at such this horrific time...
She come to Mi', with this little plea...
and said would you, could you, can you put it all together and say as if it was her...
saying goodbye to her daughter only what had just occured...
This is what I wrote and was read by my Aunt to her daughter at her funneral service, was then, later made into T~shirts and worn by over 200+ who knew her to show my Aunt their condolences....
I also know it has been printed over 1000+ times....
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