Brina aka Angel's blog: "one of my poems"

why must you treat me the way you do i'm not the type to push around I dont want to put you on the ground you know i'm some what crazy but you still put me down then i hear no sound and all of a sudden I go off just cause my pills ware off and you still pushed me even though i told you no its not my fault im crazy my life aint a bunch of dasies you know what im human just like you so back the fuck off

why must you betray the ones who say your as special as night and day the ones who say I love you your sunny just like the month of may why must you betray and kick them around in the hay and then they still say I love you!

I love you with all my heart I'm glad you came into my life your the best thing i have all im asking is please dont brake it i've been down that road before my heart is yours to hold it keeps my hopes my dreams and most of all my love your the only one i want to have it and only you do my heart is yours to keep hold of just please dont make me weep i love you baby!

Am I crazy? wanting to kill running through my head ways to hurt him hurt my mom even why did she find a nasty guy and ruin our family is it me thats crazy life all tore to hell mom cheating a happy family toen apart damn these thoughts there crazy or is it just me

I'm writing this just for you To tell you, exactly what you mean to me There is not another mother like you With all the shit I put you through You stood beside me thru thick and thin Strong and proud wouldn't brake or bend All my stupidity You were always there for me I told you just leave me be I hurt you deeply, wouldn't let you close But still strong and proud wouldn't brake or bend Had our ups and downs Blood is thick threw our veins You tried to warn me about guys When I got hurt you listened to me cry To this day i wonder how and why Strong and proud wouldn't brake or bend Helped me practice took a couple hits Took me to ball games never missed one I always wanted things my way Didn't care the price everyone else had to pay All I cared about was myself Put you thru living hell Like always strong and proud wouldn't brake or bend 19 years down the road who would of thought We'd end up like we are today I've made mistakes and learned from them Now all I can do is move on with my life I hope you get the jist of what i'm trying to say Thankyou for everything Without you and dad in my life I wouldn't know what I know now I wouldn't be strong, I'd be a complete diffrent person I hope I will be half the mother you've been to me! happy mothers day! 2006

No more worries no more fears I'll dry away all your tears Here to stand by you through the years I will help you conquer all your fears And wipe away every tear We will steer down the road together No matter shiny or rainy weather Deep in our hears the fire will burn As long as weere together there is no wrong turn So no more worries no more fears I'll be here to dry them tears The flame for you will always burn Deep down in my heart it will churn No more worries no more fears I'll stand by you through the years

My heart is singing let me free Why wont the past just let me be I dont need no more hurt and pain Looking for something great to gain That slowly eases away the pain No more deep cuts to my veins I dont want no more hurt and pain This time I'm using my brain No need to stop and strain I've got something great to gain Finally pushes away from the hurt and pain No more bleeding hurt or pain Going through my head and veins

All I want and all I need Someone who wont make my heart bleed Take it easy, nice and slow Hugs and kisses, holding tight through the night Someone who wont cause a fight Laze around with all day Through everything I know will stay Cuddle and hold me late at night Making sure im safe and feel just right Take it easy ,nice and slow Get to know me, go with the flow This feeling I have I dont wanna blow So lets just take it nice and slow All I ask is we be ourselfs I aint greedy dont look for wealth Just wish us all good health We'll take it easy, nice and slow You will see that i'm for sure My heart is mended, for you is pure It's yours for the taking All I ask is please dont brake it

He makes me laugh He makes me smile I just want to giggle a mile My heart skips a beat Dances to a brand new tune Slowly filling like a balloon I like the feeling Can not hide it Falling for him more and more Wont let him know yet Think i'll burry it Afraid of getting hurt again I feel i've found a real good friend And so much more The only one i'm falling for Scared to bend, let my guard down Worried it might bring another frown Upon my pretty face Dont want to be a discrase Go nice and slow I'm in no hurry The past is still being buried No need to worry theres only you to sit and stare in the mirror

Once so deeply in love Was hurt so bad My theory whats love It wont work if Theres no trust,hope, or faith, Lieing, cheating, and backstabing How can you be hurting Still be deeply in love He talked so smooth Knew exactly what to say His own was of getting me to fall for him Did he really love me Or was it all lies, being used I guess I will never know What it is, I truely need to hear Just a simple yes or no Hiding in fear Of wasted love of a year I really did love him Honestly dont know why No more crying, wasted tears No more hiding from the fear Maybe not knowing is best for me Finally lay the pain to rest I've moved on Passed one of lifes tests