ASIANHOTTIE DNO's blog: "me just being me"

LAST NIGHT BEFORE I WENT TO SLEEP I SAID A PRAYER TO HEAVENLY FATHERFOR FOR GUIDANCE AND FOR GUIDANCE AND STRENGTH TO HELP ME THROUGH THIS TOUGH TIME AND FOR ALWAYS. I HAD A ROUGH WEEK AND ALL OF U HAVE BEEN REALLY SUPPORTIVE AND I THANK YOU ALL FOR THAT. A VERY SPECIAL CLOSE FRIEND REMINDED ME TO REMEMBER MY UNCLE AND HOW HE LIVED INSTEAD OF HIS PASSING AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I'M GONNA DO. DON'T GET ME WRONG I STILL MISS HIM DEARLY AND I KNOW THAT I ALWAYS WILL BUT I CAN SAY THAT I KNOW IN ME HIS SPIRIT AND MEMORY WILL LIVE ON FOREVER. TODAY I SANG FOR HIM AND IT FELT LIKE HE WAS SINGING WITH ME AT THE VIEWING OF HIS BODY I SOBBED LIKE A BABY BUT AT THE SAME TIME I FELT AT EASE AND COMFORTED, ALMOST LIKE ANGELS WERE THERE WITH ME. I AM A VERY SPIRITUAL PERSON AND WELL CONNECTED TO THAT SIDE OF MYSELF... TODAY I FELT REALLY SAD FOR A WHILE BUT ALSO VERY UPLIFTED CUZ I KNOW THAT MY UNCLE WENT HOME HE IS NOW WITH HEAVENLY FATHER AND EVERYONE ELSE IN MY FAMILY WHO HAS PASSED ON.. I HAVE WLEARNED ALOT FROM THIS WHOLE WEEK ABOUT MYSELF AND OTHERS AROUND ME. I HONESTLY KNOW WHO MY TRUE FRIENDS REALLY ARE AND I LOVE YOU ALL WITH ALL MY HEART. AND AS FOR THE SITUATION WITH MY BLOOD FAMILY AND MY MOM I FORGIVE THEM BUT WILL NOT TALK TO THEM ANYMORE ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY FOR THEM (MY MOM ESPECIALLY) . I KNOW THAT AFTER TOMORROW I WON'T SEE HER FOR A VERY LONG TIME BUT I'M TRULY SORRY FOR EVERYTHING I DID TO HURT HER SO MUCH. I'M SORRY U FEEL THE WAY YOU DO ABOUT ME ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY FOR YOU.. TO MY BABY GIRL I LOVE YOU HONEY ALLWAYS AND FOREVER I ALSO KNOW TRULY THAT GOD WOULD NEVER GIVE ME (OR ANYONE) MORE THAN I CAN HANDLE I AM GREAT FUL FOR EVERY PART OF MY LIFE AND I KNOW IT COULD BE WORSE. I AM STILL MOURNING THO AND MY HEART IS STILL MENDING BUT IN TIME THINGS WILL GET BETTER ONE DAY AT A TIME.