dragonflyblues87's blog: "old stuff"

my eyes are filled with the things they have seen

can't see what's in front of me because of these things

can't sleep at night, afraid of my own room

to let this be the best of me, would bring me to doom

you can't find me, buried in my skin

you took my body, but I'll keep my soul

that's mine to keep, you can never get in

inpenetrable shield on my soul

my skin keeps me safe

from all the things you want from me

from everything you take.

so take my body, steal my skin

try though you may

my soul is still inside me

and it is here to stay

it's time for a revolution

don't believe in evolution

the world makes itself what it is

can't say adults are not like kids

it's time for a revolution

so stand up and shout

we are the future

we'll turn it inside out.

Can you see the future coming

falling to our feet

it's time to make it our own

time for a new beat.

it's time for a revolution

don't believe in evolution

we make the world what it is

not adults but no longer kids

it's time to stand up

it's time to lead

it's our revolution

do you believe?

do you want to be with me

can you see what I can see

breaking for my eyes to bleed

can you see what I can see

what do you want from me dear

can you hear what I hear

blood rushing out my ears

can you hear what I hear

do you think I'm a waste

can you taste what I taste

something less than chaste

can you taste what I taste

I shouln't continue to dwell

can you smell what I smell

the blood of a silver bell

can you smell what I smell

I have the heart you have the will

can you feel what I feel

blood inked by a spill

can you feel what I feel

the senses you sense in me

you'll never see what I see

the things that make me bleed

are only part of the darker side of me

Bloodletting at night,

don't let it be a fright

I do it for me

not to you

It's all I control

It's all I can do

pretend during the day

because I can't get away

from my cares and sorrows

but I'll see my tomorrows

It's all one has

It's not a thing one borrows

I bleed in the dark

leaving the mark

of my life past and present

so I don't feel like a peasant

It's all that I own

It's is my own

I hide in the light

with a tremendous might

through night and day

to make my pain go away

It's all that I possess

It's more than the rest.

Bleeding my soul every day

to help me act a better way

Hiding my heart in the light

so I wait for the night

it will come and wash away

all the hurt of today.

All these go so slowly

one minute an entire day.

an hour, a week.

the entire day is a year...

waiting on you to speak.

If only you knew how much I liked you...

I have goals, and they won't change,

and I know you don't know what to do

but I won't be in close range.

every day, every hour, every minute--

I wonder why your life doesn't

have room for me in it.

I'm content and yet insane,

I only have myself to blame.

a day is a year,

a minute a day,

and here I sit still

waiting to hear

what you have to say

In my eyes I can't disguise

the love I feel inside

because when I think of you

I know these feelings are true.

In my eyes you can see

all that our love can be.

My eyes are gleaming

because I am dreaming.

Dreaming of the future and the past

no other love can surpass.

But love is an illusion, a world of dreams

It hurts so much, I want to scream.

I'm dreaming an illusion, never to find

you left without a trace, how could I be so blind?

Dreaming I could have you once more

hoping you're thinking of me, that we didn't fight anymore.

Illusions everywhere I go

they wont leave me alone

a heart gone cold as stone

leaving me sitting here

all alone.

Dreams and Illusions will pull at your soul

so avoid love unless this is your goal.

a lonely woman walks up to the grave,

where her first love now laid.

Thinking of their life in the past.

Why god?  Why couldn't it last?

A life departed, one left behind

"Why'd you do it, I thought you were mine."

She loved him so much, as he did her

but a deadly decision, it did occur.

Dreams and Illusions become

of pain and suffering,

for passion and love.

I'm sorry for everything I did

and everything I said.

I'm sorry for making you wonder

if I were alive or dead.

I'm sorry I ruin things

with my big, dumb mouth

I'm sorry when things get bad

I just run out

I'm sorry for opening my mouth

without thinking things through.

I'm sorry that I did that,

ending up hurting you.

I'm sorry for saying nothing

and expecting everything in return.

I'm sorry that when you called me,

I didn't even turn.

I'm sorry for leaving

without saying goodbye.

but the things that I'm really sorry about...

making you cry.

for saying nothing

when it's what you need.

for hiding my tears from you

like I was doing a good deed.

for never telling you how I feel,

and expecting you to know

that I really like you

and my feelings still grow.

for being afraid to tell you

what I want you to be

because I'm afraid

you won't want me.

I'm sorry for these things,

and I'll tell you someday.

but for now,

I'll just go on my way.

When will this ever end

I don't want this love to send.

my heart screams aloud

but gets drowned out in the crowd.

When will this ever stop

I want for this just to drop.

my eye drops a single tear

to drown out my deepest fear.

When will this ever heal

I want for me just to feel.

my soul fades even more

to drown out my feelings before.

When will this ever cease

I don't want my life just to please.

my head says dont be blind

to drown out my life to never find.

When will this ever end

I don't want this love again.

my mouths talks all day

to drown the words away.

When will this ever stop

I never want my heart to drop

my life is twisted in so many ways

because you ruined so many days

When will I ever heal

I don't want to ever feel

my arms carry things all the time

so I don't think of your hand in mine.

When will this ever cease

I don't want your enemies

my soul is in a constant fight

so I can finally know whats right.

When will my life be mine

I don't want for you to find

my heart is torn and tattered

because to you it never mattered.

Lost within my make-believe

I see nothing that is true,

but now that I have found you,

All my mind is swimming

To the shores you bring me to,

How much longer now

In this sea of broken glass

must I paddle on without you?

Should you trample me down

And turn my wasting mind?

Should I somehow come to light,

without you guiding me by hand?

I cannot understand,

No lifeguard is bringing me

Into the shore

Like you did once before.

Travel the silent seas,

But nobody comes down to me,

Stolen by the current

Can I magnetize myself to you?

Bipolar in the ocean dew,

All memories are fading;

Every bit that was left in me

of you.

Travel down below

Should I drown within the broken snow?

Could the silence of you

Stir my soul back to life?

and aim at setting straight

Where now I am so confounded

By the trivial things I once knew.

and then it was I met you.

When everything made sense,

all painful to recollect,

Because of loss of innocence.

It was not tomorrow two hours ago,

It was yesterday, but at the time

considered tonight,

but alas, it is no more.

It is today, tomorrow is on it's way.

It's tomorrow in China, but if I were there

It would be today...

but I am not there, so it is not yesterday

in America, it is today.

It is today no matter where you are,

wher you are does not matter.

yesterday is gone,

tomorrow is another today.