- This is to thank all those who have shown me that true love is only a myth. I once thought that maybe some day... I may find the one that would be for me. Unfortunately, I have come to the harsh reality that life is only as good as you make it. Not as good as someone else makes it. After living life and having two beautiful baby girls. After being engaged six times and never married. After knowing what love without honesty is like.
I have learned a harsh lesson. Never trust anyone, and never allow yourself to fall for anyone. I guess I should have seen it coming after all. Even after catching the so called loves of my life being the opposite of what they claim. I have learned that there is no reason for me to bother looking for something that isn't realistic in this day in age.
As a friend once told me before he left this hell. Never trust anyone that you can look in eyes. I never understood what he meant. I guess you could say I've grown wiser now. Thinking back on it I realized what he meant. Every girl I have been engaged to.. I could easily look into their eyes and see the lies. I could see just how dark their hearts were. Yet, I chose to be blind to it.
He told me that someone with a truly pure heart, is extremely hard to look into their eyes. As it would overwhelm you. I met someone like this before, of course it was a very close friend that is no longer around. I do miss the people that guided me, and showed me what true compassion for others was actually like.
I remember the one time I looked that person in the eyes, and how truly overwhelming the feeling was. I couldn't breath, I couldn't think, I couldn't even swallow my own saliva. I realized then what he meant. I only felt pure warmth, and it was one of the very few times in my life I wanted to cry.
I've been through things in my life I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I've seen things happen to my closest friends, that no person should have to witness. After getting to this point in my life and watching the people I care about most disappear one by one. Everything feels so much colder in a world with no emotions.
If you have someone you truly love, hold onto them. Show them you love them every day. Don't forget, that time is not guarenteed for anyone. At any moment, your number may be called, and you will cease to be. If you have found a love you wish to never let go. Hold on to it, and pray you will never have to. Be glad you were able to find someone special enough to hold a place in your heart so big, that no doubts, no hate, and no amount of sorrow could possibly push it out.
Remember, that love is something special and should not be taken for granted. Too many people use their version of love now to manipulate others into doing whatever it is that they want them to do. It truly is a cruel world we live in. Governed by even darker forces, and easily trended with technology. Love is not something that should be taken lightly. Neither are the people in your life that care for you. Love like there is no tomorrow.. because one day? There won't be.
Person who reaches 2500 rates first:
1. Gets 500k.
2. Gets put on my bomb list.
3. Linked to my profile
4. A ticker (should be able to get another one by the end of the auction/contest.
5. Added to my family
6. Maybe something else who knows :D
Cost: 100k to enter.
(Note: Not sure yet If I am going to do this, need to find out how many people are going to want to be in it before I do it. Make sure you wait for me to ask you for the entry fee.)
What I will need from you:
1. The picture you want to use.
2. What you are offering. (Offer more and get a better bid naturally)
If you are interested in being in the auction/conest:
Leave a comment here with a "Yes I want to enter" and put a number. The first person puts one, the second puts two, and so on. So at the top of the comments I know how many people are interested.
People often wonder why so many people have changed. They say that what we have done in our past defines our now, and changes our future. In reality the only thing that changes who you are is you. You have control of your life.
A lot of people out there will fill others heads with lies if it gets them what they want, why people do this is still a mystery. Whether it be something they enjoy doing, or if they do it for the "sport". I find people that will say whatever they have to, to get what they want very sad. It's unfortunate that they don't realize that they are being loved for something they aren't. I'd rather be hated for something that I am, rather then be loved for something I'm not.
I'm a very frank person, and I'll tell someone exactly what is on my mind. Some people can't handle this, and it's unfortunate. I have given a lot of people really good advice and they never take it, ending up paying the price in the end.
Society has trained people to follow "clicks". I rather lead nothing then follow everyone. I am my own person and that is how it will always be. It's sad to see that so many people shun others just because they aren't exactly like them. Which is funny, considering they are trying to be something they aren't. In the end, they end up turning hypocrit.