Today the papers are sent to the courts. The divorce should be final in 60 days or so. I have wanted this with all my heart for what seems forever. Now that it is happening, I'm suddenly scared, worried, unsure. Is this normal? I think about going back and I cry. I can't go back to that. I can't go back to the uncertainty, the instability, the lovelessness I feel. I am doing the right thing. Life is good, it is better now than it was. I have to keep telling myself this. Do not let the fear take you back to that aweful life. It is time to look forward with excitement...i have to look forward to the rest of my life. I am free, finally! I will be fine and I am happy, I am happy with me, finally. I love myself and I finally enjoy being me and being around me again lol...sounds stupid, I know. I was miserable. I hated who I had become. Enjoy myself, enjoy my kids, enjoy my life again. I cannot wait to begin!!! Watch me go!!!! :)
