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Was a year ago mom collapsed and was found on her living room floor, she was rushed to the hospital and 4 day slater had triple bi-pass and valve replacement surgey, all went well, recovery was rough, she ended up after several attempts at being put on a resporator, they did a tracheotomy, so she could not talk, just b4 mothers day they removed a cap on the trache so she could talk, 1st time i got to speak to her in over a month...
she went to several rehab centers for various things, breathing, heart recovery, and strength rebuilding, she got out of the hospitals and rehanv centers in early june, late june she was called in to have a biopsy done, lung xrays from gettin pneumonia after surgery showed a spot, results days later, was stage 4 lung cancer...
she chose no treatment, quality of life over quntity...
she stayed with my sister for awhile and that wasnt workin well with alot of animals and her on oxygen and other obstacles... so she came to stay with me, in aug, at the end of se[tember i was put in the hospital, had breathing issues and a very bad infection in my leg, turns out i have COPD, congestive heart failure and the leg infection was similar to MRSA, that cleared up with in 6 weeks goin for daily wound care and IV therapy, when i got out, mon was still at my home, neighbor helped her while i was in, and then i cared for her, she was in and out of hospital a few times, come nov her condition went down hill fast..
she found out she was accepted to a place called BIOLOGICAL RESOURCES that day was when her mind and body weaked alot, nov 18th she was moved to Hospice house, where she bravely resided until her passing on nov 29th
dec 28th we had as her wishes "celebration of life gathering" with family and friends, all went well...
Mid January we got a news that Biological Resporces in rosemont illinois was raided by the FBI. weeks later we found out they had mom and we should have her ashes within 2 months... in mid march we found out that the FBI and "BR" had court, BR wont that battle and still "owns" the rights to the remains of about 600 familys loved 1s.. and we may not get her ashes for a year or better or if at all...
days later, we got more news, all they have of her is her arms...
ive had a very hard time with this, mourning... the news, of all of this has made mourning not possible , i had anxiety issues to begine with this has thrown me into attacks lately, i was in the hospital friday night for it for observation, meds adjusted etc, so here we are, 1st easter, without, and my day started out in a very bad way, im tryin very hard to be me, it aint easy, but i will get there
so judge me if u want, im me and this is my life the past year...
thanks, mg
ps.. plz read newest comment
Newly-unsealed documents detail what federal investigators allegedly found when they raided two suburban businesses, a Schiller Park crematorium and the Rosemont office of the Biological Resource Center of Illinois, which arranges body donations for medical research, in January.
The documents say that the raids uncovered thousands of body parts and tissue samples; everything from heads and hands to legs and torsos, all part of an alleged "body broker" ring that illegally obtained and sold human remains on the black market.
Federal authorities say the operation came to light after scores of body parts were found on ice, instead of embalmed, in warehouses in Detroit and Phoenix.
Documents show some of the remains were infected with HIV, Hepatitis and other disease, but nonetheless sold for medical training to hospitals and doctors in the U.S. and overseas.
Federal agents say those body parts were supplied by Biological Resource Center of Illinois. They also say the company lied to its donors, promising remains would not be sold.
But financial records obtained in the January raids show whole corpses were routinely sold for $5,000, arms for $750 and heads for $500.
just a few thoughts i wanna share.. fu relationships happen faster than we get over the common cold... and its becoming more common ppl goin from 1 to another to another, which is fine, its ur choice ur biz, but in lounge settins its efecting everyone around yall too, when a break up happens the lounge usually loses 1 if not both ppl, that was a friend/ family member, we get past it, but cant go visit cuz the lounge they chose so and so is in and we aint allowed or whatever lol, its really been a long cold winter stuck in doors but slow down ppl, get to know these ppl, become friends enjoy some time together b4 ya call em baby, thats a term of endearment and should mean more than just showing off a new fu partner, just my thoughs, im tired of losing friends and family members
after thought if this was real life and we called em family, wouldnt that be incest, HA! gotchas :)
as i sit here, alone, no lounge to enter, no plce to call home, no one home at the house, no one any place to talk to, i wonder, what do the others expect pf me now? just sit here, im going to b judged no matter what i do, so ive decided to concider reopening my lounge, im sure thats already go bad remarks, cuz once again, ppl already judging b4 they know facts, acting as if they know me, obviously some dont or they woulda knew i wasnt ever tryin to be (these r exact quoies from one of them) "You seem mad and takeing it out on ppl" "so lashing out at us is something we just will not put up with" "unfair and just rude" and the best one - "I only hope you will find a way to deal with what ever is wrong and fix it not for us but your own self" i wasnt tryna be any of that, text is just that, adding emotion is on the recievers sholders if they dont ask, the words fuck you can be taken many ways its not a quote i used on ppl but think about this, ppl say it mad, ppl say it jokingly, ppl say it for many reasons.. just hadda get this off my mind.
as for me opening a lounge, NO i would not do so to compete with DA that would be incredibly dumb on my part, i helped build that place, why in gods name would i want to compete with it, i know its a beast, i know its a top 5 lounge, worked endless hours with 3-5 ppl in there for months till it startedto grow, dark and i djd for 24+ hours a day + at times passing back and forth at reboot time, lol, was it worth it, hell yes, look around, i love that place all all it stands for and always will, did i stand up for i when i felt something was done off key, hell yes, and got fired for it, so be it, so to all of yas that assumed i would open a lounge to compete with da, lol, again, dont judge me, u dont know me at all
love and hugs to all my real family and friends
the rest, good luck to yas, i hope in 3 years u can have the knowledge i do to know no matter what my name is associated with DA in a good way! and be thought of for all the help to ppl, that only a loving heart can give, thats the me ur missing out on now
