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I woke up this morning shaking slightly to the sight of seeing my ex on the laptop in my room. For what seemed like hours I had been waking up and asking him what time it was. When what I wanted to ask him was if he could lay down on the bed with me and just hold me. But that would be giving him too much of a soft side to me... since he doesn't do that. And I know that I would get a hell no out of him for that.
Yet I just asked him about something trival to make it easier than me going all sappy on him, only to keep it civial.... yet i turned around and bite his head off when he asked me a secondary question. I have been like this since we broke up, its taking me a lot to stay friends with him and I know it may be doing the same with him as well.
But for once... since all this went down.. I think one serious emotion from him .... him letting me in. Now that he doesn't have to suffer through sex with me . Would be able to put a smile on my face.
Oh well.
much love all
