Alyssa Michael Mckinney's blog: "not what you think"

I wish that you could hold me in your arms under a starry night sky, keeping me close to your heart as you keep me warm from the cool air. I wish that as we sit under that starry night sky, while in your arms, that you pull me in close just to whisper into my ear "Sweet heart, you my sunlight, everyday I am blessed to have you in my life, and i just wanted to let you know that at this very moment i love you with all my heart..."

Thinking of how much I wanted to be with you forever, but when I opened my eyes and you were gone, I never really realized how much it hurt that you never cared, that you used me to get closer to someone else... How stupid was I to actually care for you, how I stayed up every night thinking you truly loved, how i imagined that when you asked to marry me you really ment it, then just stand by as you stomp upon my heart... but I guess in the end with all that we had been through and all that shared it was not at all what i had truly thought....