Tears falling slowly down my face
remembering your smile everyday
wanting so hard to hold onto
a memory that seems to of
never been real.
Why all the sudden is this how i feel
has life really succomed to this
an empty feeling a soulless fate
all the fantasy realities
i would create.
So many lies, sad part is
so many were mine.
I want so much to change
to take away all the stupidity
and pain.
But is the saying let the past lye
really the best thing to do.
I can create whatever outcome i want
it to be but truth of the matter is
it will never change what happend
it will never give the answers i am seaking
how can i trust in somthing that gives me
so much room to wonder.
Just because i question things
doesnt mean i never loved you
or that i dont still love you
i guess its just easier for me
to not beleive then it is for me
to wake up and face reality.
When i have no way to ever
learn the truth part of me wonders
if its best to allow myself to believe your
really gone and morn you properly before i move on,
or is it better for me to just say it isnt so
and be angry with you for all the lies you told.
