What is strength, if not a façade
A misrepresentation of pain
Hiding the fear inside me
Tears washed away by the rain
Smiling to control my quivering lips
Not giving into the temptation
Laughing, so I don't start to cry
Controlling my desperation
I have thrived during harder times
And lived to see happier days
But I wonder if I'm now too worn down
For I just can't see through all the haze
There is no rainbow after this storm
The tunnel is as black as can be
There's no light at the other end
Just fear, and the darkness, and me
But I won't let you see the sadness in me
I've been trained to put on a good show
Please don't ask me how I'm doing today
Because hell, I don't even know
I'll stand up tall to appear more than I am
And I hope you wont see right through
Because it's really too bad that inside of me
I'm hollow, and coming unglued
I need to be filled with love again
And with the knowledge that I am me
And that no matter what happens out there
I am a pretty good person to be
But until I can accept who I am right now
Without hiding and feeling ashamed
Please leave me be, to do this myself
Until the monster can finally be tamed
And as I always say, I'll be just fine
See, I'm smiling right now for you
Just please don't look at me for too long
So maybe you'll believe that it's true
