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I am having are really hard time accepting the death of my dad. I am not sure if I ever will. I am trying to be strong for my mom because I know that is what my dad would want but, with each passing day it becomes harder and harder for me. Everything reminds me of him, the trees, the sound of the outdoors, my home, his home. I never thought something could be so rough. I am thinking of seeking some counciling because I really do not think I can do this alone. I have to make myself eat, sleep, work or even a fake smile. I have lost interest in a lot of things that I use to enjoy doing. I could care less if I even get out of bed. I try to just do things and pretend I'm not thinking about it but, honestly every moment of every day I am. I have always been close to my dad, he was my hunting partner, my friend and I just don't know how I am suppose to ever move on. To be honest at this point and time I don't really even want too. These last 2 weeks have went slower than any other time in my entire life. I am so afraid I will forget the sound of his voice, the touch of his wrinkled hands, or the smell of his cologne. My whole day is so messed up because I use to call him at certain times of the day to check on him, or on my way home from work, then later in the evening. I still talk to my mom at these times but, I have caught myself wanting to ask her "what's dad doing?" I do not think my life will ever be the same, I think I will always have this empty, unhappy, lost feeling that will never go away.

Otto B. Hall, age 73 of Mt. Vernon died unexpectedly early Tuesday, December 25, 2007 at home. He was born on September 2, 1934 in Banner, Kentucky to the late Oliver and Goldie (Curtis) Hall. While living the majority of his life on SR 657 in Centerburg and for the past 15 years he had been a resident of Mt. Vernon. Before retiring Otto had worked over 29 years in various capacities with the Galena Brick Yard in Galena; retiring as a tow motor operator. A member of United Baptist Church and Centerburg Conservation Club, he enjoyed the outdoors and hunting, especially for deer, squirrel and rabbit. He always put the needs of his family and others before his own. Most proud of his wife, family, and country side homestead. He will be remembered for his caring and compassionate ways. Survived by his wife of 48 years: Barbara (Grove) Hall, whom he married June 9, 1959 in Banner, Kentucky, Daughters: Margaret Davis of Centerburg, Judy Hall (fiancé Josh Jones) of Mt. Vernon, Sisters: Faye Boggs of Mt. Vernon, Jean (Ted) Goodman of Centerburg, Patsy (James) Wilson of Willard, Brother-in-law: William Smith of Norwalk, Sister-in-laws: Shirley Hall of Marengo, Betty Hall of Centerburg, Bonnie(Dale) Price of Sunbury, and dear canine companion Pudgie. Preceded in death by Sisters: Margaret Ousley, Margie Smith, Brothers: Roy and J.P. Hall, and Brothers-in-law: Elmer Boggs, Jerry Grove, Niece Teresa Price, Nephews Mike and Jimmy Price. Friends may call Friday 4-8 p.m. at DeVore-Snyder Funeral Home, SR’s 3 at 61, Sunbury, where services will be Saturday 11:00 a.m., Pastor Shirley Adkins officiating, burial will follow at Bloomfield Cemetery. Memorial contributions can be made to his family. Condolences may be expressed at www.snyderfuneralhomes.com.

I thought everyone would enjoy this little video It was taken in our back yard on Tuesday evening about 7 pm during a thunderstorm. You can hear the birds singing and the bugs chirping, and see the lightining and hear the thunder. I promise there is nothing wrong with this link it was taken from our own camera. Hope you enjoy it!!!! MWAAAAh misfitgraphics.yi.org/blog/closeone.avi Let me know what you think if have a moment.

SEATTLE (AP) -- Cincinnati's defense got a whole lot better in just one week. Ultimately, it wasn't good enough when it needed to be. Nate Burleson caught a 22-yard touchdown pass from Matt Hasselbeck with 1 minute remaining to rescue the sputtering Seattle Sea hawks in a 24-21 victory over the Bengals on Sunday. Glenn Holt then got hit with a flying shoulder from Lance Laury while returning the ensuing kickoff. Deon Grant recovered the fumble with 54 seconds remaining to seal the win for Seattle (2-1). Kenny Watson, subbing for ineffective and then injured Rudi Johnson, ran 8 yards with 2:42 left to rally the Bengals to a 21-17 lead. T.J. Houshmandzadeh tied his career high with 12 catches and had 141 yards receiving with a touchdown for the Bengals (1-2), who lost for the 31st time in 43 trips to the West Coast. The Sea hawks began the ensuing drive at their 40, thanks to Shayne Graham shanking the kickoff out of bounds. Hasselbeck's 15-yard pass to Burleson put Seattle in Cincinnati territory. On fourth-and-1 with 1:41 to go, Shaun Alexander ran 14 yards off tackle to the 22. Alexander, playing his second consecutive game with a covering over his sprained left wrist, started slowly but finished with 100 yards on 21 carries. The Sea hawks took a 17-15 lead with 6 minutes left when Josh Brown put a partially blocked field goal through from 23 yards. Brown got into position because of Bobby Engram's third-down catch and then a 15-yard facemask penalty on Deltha O'Neal that put the ball on the Cincinnati 11. Seattle (2-1) had 210 total yards and just 14 points after three quarters against a defense that Cleveland shredded for 51 points and 554 total yards last week.

Well as some of you know most of you do not, I graduated college August 17th 2007. Seems like it has been a lifetime but, I am glad it is over with. However, I have been doing some really hard thinking about going back again sometime in the Spring (I know call me stupid). I have not totally made up my mind yet but it is laying hard on my mind right now. I am looking forward to my party that we are having on the 5th and 6th of October, yes it is a 2 day party..... Hell I have waited 2 years for this party so I am going to make it last as long as I can. Next weekend I have another party that my parents and my sister are throwing for me, this one is more like a family/friend party. I am sure this is boring to most of you but, for those that know me and that are coming they know how important this is and has been for me! Until we meet again Peace Out