Irishlady RLGF to Rawk Dawg's blog: "Thoughs"

I sit here day after day tring to remember a time I didnt love you . I think back to all the smiles n all the love . I remeber the tears I cryed when u first told me u loved me. That i was the only one for you. How I completed you.I remeber how u would just hold me close n all was ok and perfect. I remember the light in your eyes when u would see my name or hear my voice . To this day i still feel the deep never ending love u have for me. I close my eyes and its your face i see . In the dead of nite its your voice i hear.When I wake up in the middle of the nite from a nightmare its you i look for.No matter how far apart we are or how closed off you may be I will always love you 
I remember the hurt n the pain in your eyes n in your voice when u said it was over.I remember the hurt in ur words. That day i watched my best friend n the only one who  will ever complete me walk away. I watched as my heart n soul walked away n how it tore me apart.I sit here trying to pick up the pieces but i cant. I dont have the streangth nor the will power to.I dont know how You can go day by day as if it dont hurt u. I will never understand how you can just turn off a love as strong as ours. I admite im not perfect and that i messed up. I can honestly say i now know what true love was n how it felt n how it feels to lose that.What i dont understand is how if u loved me so much you could just walk away n not try to work it out.I will never stop fighting for that love we shared . Its worth all the battles. All the pain. I will prove to you that you can trust me again . That the love u have so locked away deep inside you is still there. I will love u till my last dieing breath my last heart beat .