I thought that I was over pain and thought that I could move forward and open myself up to you. I thought that true friends were always to be loyal to each other. I never asked you to prove it...never asked you to show it. I thought it just simply was.
I thought the words were real and that true friendship never dies. You called me your best friend and I held that close to my heart because you knew all I had been through last year and how hard it was for me to trust completely again.
I stood by your side trusting and I cared without limits, loved you as family without asking anything of you back. I cared and loved with all my heart...as I do all my true and close friends.
******I would always stand by your side no matter what...damn you for not doing the same and for putting someone less important between our friendship. Thank you for being ashamed of me and what we have as a friendship. ******
You cried on my shoulder and spoke that we would be friends forever...that me moving would be hard on you and I thought....that you meant what you said. You told me that ever second we got to spend together as best friends, was important to you...all night we spoke about the friendship we have had and all that we have been though.
I thought in you I could learn to trust my friends again completely and not have to keep my guard up 24/7. I was wrong....you have now shown me that I cannot trust and cannot open myself up in that way. You have shown me once again that there is no one to trust but one's self. You have shown me that words are empty things and a touch can be worthless.
You have taught me that even though we are a lot a like...there is a huge gap...see I would NEVER EVER HIDE my friends. I would never not stand up for or fight for my friends. I would never not love and care for my friends. and I for sure would never break the heart of one of my friends by completely lying to them.
I can never trust you again completely no matter your words or reasons. You would have to prove to me that what I know...is wrong...and to do that... well we both know you will not do that.
I have forgiven you for so many things and give you more chances, than I have ever thought to give any other friend. I broke my own rules and gave you those other chances...thinking your friendship was worth it. I was wrong and I am forever greatful for the fact that you have taught me this lesson AGAIN!
This song only expresses 110% on how much that you have done to me and our friendship...and how last August I was right about trusting people...even friends.
Forever and always,
*DarK ShaDoW AnGeL*
