9:20 PM 10/17/2007
It is the quite of the night when the world makes ready to sleep . I am here....in the dim light of my dwelling , Restless and unable to allow my mind to rest . The pentence i pay is for my secrets and my hidden desires. Living by the rules of my heart is not always a peaceful emotion . I struggle with decisions yet act on a whim . I am constantly in dis agreement with what i am allowed to have and what i truly want . How is it to be ...to tame the heart when it is suspose to soar ? Well into my torment i know less of the why and more of the why not . Standing in the middle of the bridge ..... about to collaspe.... what direction shall i run ...what side is saftey . I wish i could tell ....whats makes me so weak . I must hush to survive yet i want to scream with delight .
