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What are you waiting for?
There is a darkness
That dwells deep within me
It is a sadness which I hide
So no one else can see
It tortures my soul
And invades my thoughts
And dims my inner light
During the day it haunts me less
But hits me hardest At night.
The sadness comes from a tortured past
from a life with too much pain
A stormy past filled with sorrow
That falls on me like rain
But I know that with time and lots of hope
I will someday rise above,
And the sadness that lies Within my heart
Will be replaced completely with love.
by Melynda August 11, 2006
It's hard to say the word
Even now twenty years gone by.
Just thinking about the word
Makes me feel anxious,
wanting to cry
I don't think about that night
As much as I used to,
But the memory will never
fade completely
A fight with a memory
That I always lose to.
I still feel it's my fault
I still feel guilty
If I hadn't been out that night,
It wouldn't have happened to me.
I've been told by a few
That I am not to blame
But it's hard for me to accept that
So I continue to live with the shame.
I relive it in my dreams
Every once in a while
I hear his evil voice
I see his wicked smile.
He threatens my life
If I cry out or scream
So I let him take my body
So continues the bad dream.
He assaults me and tortures me
For six hours straight,
Humiliating and degrading me
His intent is filled with hate.
When the sun starts to rise,
I'm finally able to break free.
I'm injured and I'm bloody
But I somehow manage to flee.
I got away with my life
Even though badly hurt.
And now twenty years later
It's still hard to say the word
I live with the nightmare
I wish I could escape
It's still hard to say the word
And that word would be RAPE
~~ Melynda December 06. 2009
