Dragonfairy's blog: "MY POETRY"

Its midday and the sun is beating down on me like its trying to pierce through my skin. Hot pressure sent away by the breeze that swings by so cool yet not cold enough to make a difference. I sit there on this bench in the middle of the park watching and waiting. People passing ever so gracefully going about their days as they do every time I see them. There are the dog walkers tangled up in the web of leashes just trying to stop one moment for a drink of ice cold water in the bottle strapped to their waste. Lets hope this time they don’t trip but at last they seem to have less dogs today. As I turn ever so slightly in my seat shifting from the heat, I glance over to see the playground. Full as always being it’s a Saturday afternoon and the children of this area love to be there so much. Parents gathered at a  variety of benches and tables surrounding the playground, talking amongst themselves as the children run freely chasing one another in what appears to be a game of tag. Off in the distance like an almost forgotten memory you can faintly hear the sounds of traffic buzzing around the city but here in this park it’s a more calmer peaceful feeling. Like for this very moment time has frozen to the sounds of nature. The trees swaying in the breeze so full of life their branches expanding out as if reaching for something. They hang there still as can be as though they are welcoming the birds that have perched on them taking a short rest from soaring in the open sky. They sing in praise at the beautiful day that we all are sharing together yet separate. I close my eyes and let my mind drift away as though it has somewhere to go. Listening ever so carefully to the sounds of the lovely song in which the birds have all so simply joined in together to sing. In almost perfect harmony the rustling of the leaves in the cool days breeze and the softly whispers of the collective conversations all around chime into the song in which this park joyfully sings every Saturday afternoon I come here. But at last my time here is done and off into the distance I go back into a world that is unlike the one in which I am leaving, to cherish the lovely though of the time in which I will return tomorrow. For now someone else will enjoy it until I am again on the bench watching and waiting, experiencing and enjoying a wonder afternoon at the park. 

Fiery passion engulfs her heart as she feels her touch against her skin,

Smooth like silk, the soft embrace sends shivers into her very core.

She brush her hair slowly out of her face and smiles at the beauty before her eyes,

Her eyes glimmer with such love and desire, a longing for every moment to last forever.

Her lips look inviting with the plump pout of eagerness for her lovers kisses,

She presses hers up against them and locks in the taste that she enjoys so much.

Her arms wrap around the amazing goddess standing before her,

Pulling her closer with each and every kiss, she is more inviting then before.

Pushed chest to chest the two lovers embrace in a passionate long kiss,

What seems like it will last forever end suddenly when she pulls slowly away.

Lost in her eyes she gasps at how lucky she must be to be with her,

How every moment is a blessing and one she treasures with all her heart and soul.

A long path of hardship and loneliness is the one she has walked down for so long,

Her head hung low with disappointment and sadness that she carries with her.

Her soul empty and heart broken into pieces she feels are beyond repair,

The road is covered in harsh rocks and the fire of hatred for those who kicked her down.

As the tears fall and her hopes fade into nothing she sees the endless path before her,

At the point when she almost gives up a hand reaches for hers……

There he stands his hand in hers and she looks up into his eyes,

Caring, so soft with love he looks at her as though she is a goddess before him.

Her hand locks in his; the warmth is filling her heart,

As they walk side by side the path that she has walked on for so long is changing.

The trees are flourishing; the grass begins to take form beneath her feet where the road was,

The sun is shining up above as her life is brightening into a peaceful walk way.

The dark and lonely path is behind her and in front of them is pure happiness,

She moves closer to him, her savior, and her new life with him fixes the broken pieces of her heart.

The future before the two is set in a beautiful joy and she forgets the past,

Only hopeful of what this path will bring her……

As I fade into nothing, the hope I had is disappearing into nothing

Forget me; the person is not worth trying for

Forget me, for I am not around

Forget the time we spent together

The feelings you had for me will soon be gone

I am a ghost in your life

A presence that no longer fits

I am not important enough to get your attention

Not worthy for your affection

Forget me, for I am not right for you

Forget me, for I have failed

Forget the feeling of holding me

For I have gone and you don’t even care

The last person on your list was I

The only one who never got what you wanted

The girl who was never enough

Enough to hold your attention, to be the one you wanted

Find comfort in those you have

Find happiness with others that you couldn’t find with me

Forget everything about me

Forget ever being with me

Just forget me……. And move on

As day turns into night I long for your embrace,

Your touch, your presence, just being there with you,

At the darkest hour, during the coldest night, it’s you I want

Come near me, be besides me, and tell me how you feel.

Truthful words please speak to me, from the heart I want to hear

Is it me you wish to be with; is it me you long to hold?

I am unsure of where I stand, unsure of what you want.

Whisper to me if this is what you desire; let your feelings have a voice.

I am here for you, open and willing

Give anything for you, to be your happiness and joy.

Be honest with me and I shall be true to you,

Be faithful with me and I shall be unto you.

Our paths may cross at difficult times, but life is never planned.

Go to me and tell me what your heart desires,

I promise to give you everything you want and more………

I sit there in the dark all alone it seems,

Yet there you are sitting next to me.

Why do I feel that I am alone?

Why do I feel as my heart is breaking?

Questions I ask, I can’t answer.

You tell me you love me,

And still I am sitting here unsure.

You tell me you can’t live without me,

And yet I feel as though you’re wrong.

It seems that you take for granted that I am here,

You expect that I will just always be there.

Well truth be told your wrong,

I won’t just sit here waiting for you to notice me.

I’m not going to have my heart break every time you don’t need me,

Because I needed you and you weren’t there.

I’ve sat by your side while you ignored me for others,

I stayed by your side while your focus was for them not me.

Not any more, I won’t take this anymore,

I am done with all the games,

I’m done with all the waiting.

When I’m gone then you will realize………

I was worth more than what you showed me!

In the night I sit in the dark, swallowed by the tears that I cry

Trying so hard to hold on to the light, its happiness I treasure

Alone in this corner my heart torn by the hardship of lies

You said you wanted me, you said you needed me

But were those words formed to fill my desire not yours?

I wait in the shadows, the loneliness devours my soul

Was I asking too much, was I expecting more then I should have?

I go running towards you when you need me

But when I so desire your attention your not to be found

In this awakening hour I sit here open and exposed to all

My feelings, my needs, my desires banished away by you

How could I be such a fool, how could I fall for the words you so spoke?

Is this the truth, the never ending cycle of give and take?

In which you are always the receiver

I shut out the feelings of hatred and sorrow

I push back the flood of tears that shall not fall for you

I am strong, I am willed and I will stand

Time has shown me the guidance I so need

And I shall walk the path away from you

Into a world in which I will be happy again……..

Love is an endless stream of surprises

Joyful filled bliss that hits your heart hard

Falling like your world has been torn from under you

Sometimes you hit bottom and realize it wasn’t real

Sometimes you float forever

With the feeling that it’s perfect in every way

With the hope that you will feel like that everyday

A heart is a fragile gift you give others

No control over what happens to it and why

United in a bond where your soul has found its match

This love is not always spoken but felt by many

No need for words when its power is wonderful

Live your life to find this happiness

When you find it never let go…….

Today is a day just like any other you see

But today is so much better then yesterday was for me

While yesterday was grand and the best day to date

Today will be better just you wait

For I loved you as much as I could yesterday

But today I love you more

For I missed you greatly yesterday

I miss you today less than before

Because soon in your arms I’ll be

And forever you will see

That tomorrow will be a day just like any other day

But I’ll love you more than I do today

And I’ll miss less then every other day

In your arms I will be

And on the day……..

I’ll Love You Endlessly!

For I won’t miss you at all that day

Cause In your arms I’ll forever stay.