brujah236's blog: "MY POETRY"

BECAUSE I'M EVIL 4/24/08 SOMETIMES I FEEL BLIND LIKE A MASK IS COVERING MY MIND SOMETHINGS THAT ARE MEANT TO BE ARE STARING RIGHT AT ME WHAT YOU WILL AND ONCE YOU HAVE IT LIFE CAN BE SUCH A HABIT IF YOU THINK ABOUT WHAT I REALIZE TRY AND UNDERSTAND BY NOT USING EYES SOMETIMES ITS HARD TO KEEP FEELINGS AT BAY I FEEL LIKE I JUST NEED TO WALK AWAY THE PEOPLE I LOVE ARE THE PEOPLE I HURT I SHOULD BE BURIED SIX FEET UNDER DIRT NO, I WILL NOT KILL MYSELF TODAY BUT I WILL DIE A LITTLE BIT MORE EACH DAY NO ONE DESERVES MY TORTURE AND TORMENT WHENCE I CAME SHALL BE RETURNED, HELL SENT

SONG #1 THE TEMPEST OF EMOTION 5/25/99 V1 I WATCH THE SUN AS IT SETS OVER THE SEA I WONDER WHY IT SEEMS EVERYTHING HAPPENS TO ME PEOPLE TAKE FOR GRANTED THE LOVE THAT I GIVE SOMETIMES ITS SO DAMN HARD FOR ME TO EVEN LIVE C1 THE TEMPEST RAGES ON IT RAGES IN MY BRAIN THE TEMPEST RAGES ON ITS DRIVING ME INSANE V2 I DAYDREAM AS I SMOKE A CIGARETTE THINKING OF HOW MUCH WORSE MY LIFE CAN GET I REALIZE THAT SOONER OR LATER LIFE FOR ME IS BOUND TO GET BETTER C2 THE TEMPEST RAGES ON IT RAGES THROUGHOUT MY SOUL THE TEMPEST RAGES ON I'M SPINNING OUT OF CONTROL V3 WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE YOU'VE GOT TO USE YOUR HEAD DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT WISHING YOU WERE DEAD LIFE IS THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT YOU CAN RECIEVE TO MAKE IT WORTH LIVING ALL YOU NEED IS TO BELIEVE

TORTURE 3/22/99 ENCOMPASSING IS THE SKY ALWAYS SHINING BRIGHTLY WITH THE LIGHT DARKNESS COMES WITH THE NIGHT THIS IS HOWIT HAS BEEN AND STAYS NO ONE HAS EVER THOUGHT OF THE WAY I FELT WHEN I SAW THE CASKET WITH MY GRANDPA THE TORTURE OF LOSS BECAUSE OF LOVE HENRY DAMIEN WAS HIS NAME MY CLOSEST FRIEND THAT WAS HE MANY TIMES I WISHED IT NOT BE NEVER AGAIN WILL I BE THE SAME

THE LOVE 4/01/98 SO MANY THINGS ARE RACING THROUGH MY MIND THE TEARS WELL UP FROM TIME TO TIME LAUGHING AND DANCING WITH THE REST HAVING A TIME NEAR TO THE BEST I THINK OF OTHER THINGS TO DO I'D LIKE TO DO THEM WITH YOU THE ONES WHO FINISH LAST ARE ONES WHO'S SHADOW IS LONGEST CAST MINE IS ONE OF THESE EVEN THOUGH I AIM TO PLEASE I WISH TO RID MYSELF OF THE PAIN WHICH FEELS LIKE BEING RUN OVER BY A TRAIN MY MIND AND HEART CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE TOO MANY TIMES, SHUT IN MY FACE, IS A DOOR I'LL CARE ABOUT YOU IF YOU CHOOSE TO CARE ABOUT ME IF YOU WANT ME TO I'LL LEAVE YOU BE IF I THINK TOO LONG I MIGHT HURT MYSELF WITH A WEAPON ON A SHELF MEMORIES NEED TO BE ERASED OR LOCKED AWAY SO I CAN START OFF FRESH, A NEW DAY LOVE IS ANOTHER WORD FOR HOW I FEEL YOU MUST BE THINKING, "HOW CAN IT BE REAL?" YOU'LL NEVER KNOW UNLESS YOU ASK ARE YOU UP TO THE TASK?

LOOK 03/17/98 WHAT DO YOU SEE WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME JUST LOOK IN MY EYES THEN GIVE ME YOUR REPLIES IF YOU CARE ENOUGH TO GIVE IT A WHIRL I'M JUST LOOKING FOR A NICE GIRL GIVE ME COMPANY IS WHAT YOU'LL DO OF COURSE I'LL GIVE IT BACK TO YOU

CRIMES 3/12/98 IF YOU THINK THAT I'M NOT KIND YOU HAD BETTER BACK UP AND REWIND THESE THINGS THAT I SAY HAVE TO DO WITH YOU TODAY YOU HEAR MY PROBLEM AND SEE NO FAME YOU MAKE MY HEART WELL UP IN FLAME EVEN IF I FALL AND DIE TOO MANY CRIMES HAVE BEEN COMMITTED THE PEOPLE IN THOUGHT HAVE ALL ADMITTED

UNDERSTANDING 2/25/98 MY LOVE IS LIKE A WILDFIRE WITH AN INTENSE HEAT TO LOOK INTO A PERSONS EYES WOULD MAKE THEM RETREAT NOT MANY THINK IT IS RIGHT TO SHOW SUCH LOVE IN TIME SO SHORT THE PEOPLE I HAVE SHOWN THIS LOVE HAVE PUSHED THE BUTTON "ABORT" NOONE UNDERSTANDS WHY I DO WHAT I DO FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND ME YOU MUST LET ME SHOW MY LOVE TO YOU PEOPLE CARE NOT ABOUT WHAT THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND FOR MY LOVE IS THE SUBJECT PRESENTLY AT HAND

ALL TOO UNCONDITIONAL 2/13/98 JOIN MY CLUB IF YOU DARE FOR I CANNOT CONTROL WHAT HAPPENS THERE UNCONTROLLING OF WHAT OTHERS DO I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO STOP WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU NOT MANY PEOPLE SEE THE DANGER OF LIES FOR THESE ARE ROTTEN AND LAID UPON BY FLIES THEY CAN DESTROY A RELATIONSHIP WITH A COUPLE WORDS THAT MAY SLIP MY LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL TOO BAD NO ONE CARES AT ALL I DON'T THINK ABOUT THOSE DAYS ANYMORE WE HAVE THE FUTURE TO EXPLORE SO MUCH CAN HAPPEN TO THEE BUT NOT A SOUL LOOKS TO ME I AM ONE WHO IS LONELY UNTIL LIVE WILL BE SHOWN TO ME I SEEK TO FIND A PIECE OF MIND WHAT PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THESE TEARS OF BLOOD WILL SHOW

THE EMBRACED 2/13/98 IF YOU CAN SEE WHAT I CANNOT THINKING OF THINGS THAT THICKEN THE PLOT MY EYES WILL BLEED WITH THE TEARS THAT SHOW ALL MY HIDDEN FEARS THIS BROW WILL CREASE AS I GET PISSED NOW I'VE ADDED YOUR NAME TO MY LIST

HALLS OF THE BLIND 2/13/98 I CAN SEE WHAT YOU SEETH NOT VISION MILKY THEN EYES ROT WHEN YOU TURN THEY WILL BE GONE WHISPERING THEIR HIDDEN SONG THEN YOU SEE WHAT CANNOT BE SHADOWS MOVE WHERE LIGHT SHOULD BE OUT OF DARKNESS OUT OF MIND INTO THE HALLS OF THE BLIND