Killing Me Softly's blog: "My poetry"

I've found a place to hide A place they can't reach My fortress of protection Built on lack of speech And with the fading of those words I pass beyond the physical plains Which bore the hate and suffering That drew me to this place The rain, it falls all day and night To bathe this caustic filth A realm unspoiled by any other On a foundation of silence built I've found a place to hide A place they can't reach A little slice of heaven That pain can never breach So with my departing breath You suck the life out of me To feed the cynics appetite You could never let things be No more do I brood around The air doesn't weigh heavy here Upon my cold shoulders rest no longer a crippling fear Though when I scream out the nothing My voice bounces right back So I roam this desolate place i've built In search of what I lack But these walls were built too sturdy And the locks... they have no key So I dwell here all by myself for all eternity I've found a place to hide Where I can just be A place where they can never reach And I can never leave

A she-devils hands at play Kiss the lips Of a demon! Where bad things stir, like bodily fluids... Worshipping a woman, A mystery... Sins lie, on a bed of roses Where our sweat drips like blood from a teary eye Bathed in envy's glow Entombed by desires of the flesh Our voices vibrate the walls Clawing my nails Blood flowing down your back Breaking skin with my teeth Looking up from where you belong, underneath me! Longing to find life in my eyes Your body cries to be free Disguised by beauty "She is the devil herself!" I could be... And still... They choose not to refuse me Temptations ascend... Pathetic fools Do you think this is only a big boys game? I could crush you all, the hunted animals you are That by night unveils, a drunken lust Whose passion prevails Allured by the sky, lit with her devil eyes Enticing by purest disguise

Said I wouldn't do it again Prayed to god I wouldn't do it again Creeping black took over again Poison in me, in my blood Through my soul, I feel no pain inside Only for the moment now Liquor fades too quickly It's only for the moment now Pitiful glory Souless Repeating agony, deliberate I can't escape the enemy inside my heart Obsession, compulsion, wasteful nonsense Peer into my heart and reject me please It's what I want after all... Lose me Leave me Never love me Never what I need Some of you see the pain in my eyes If I let you through Some of you feel the heat of my heart When you pass too closely Attracted like moths, doomed Fluttering into a falseness, A scorching sun I WILL LEAD YOU DOWN

I've known pain.. Digging, scratching, scraping pain. Splitting my soul in two, like a knife thrust into my chest A pain washed in tears gone dry And sprinkled in pieces of dreams Yes, Ive known that pain... I've known loss... Empty, gaping, expansive loss. Turning beautiful memories Into a painful black hole Standing by in awe... As this wrekingball of life Destructs what my heart has built Yes, I've known that loss too... I've known hate Writhing, seething, burning hate. The sight of nails digging into pillows, Wishing it were human flesh...The growing lust for blood and discontent As thoughts of torture fill your mind Yes, I've known hate as well... I've known Love... Glorious, total, unconditional love. The serenity of silence And an unselfish state of mind... That thing that makes pain, loss and hate All seem worthwhile Yes, Ive known Love

How does it feel?????? To be TORTURED... And TERRIFIED... BY ME!! You started this..... Now i'll finish it!! I'll hurt you so badly, scar you... And NEVER think twice! You'll be so afraid... Cowaring like a child... You'll never be the same... You want me to stop? Why should I listen to you??? See.. I can do it too...

I am mechanical I am a machine Built up from nothing Running on dreams I am interchangeable There are so many like me Just change me, rearrange me I'm only here to please I am programable Push the right button i'm yours My flaws are like viruses They can always be cured I am replaceable I come with a warranty If you don't like me, replace me SATISFACTION GUARENTEED!