Turtle's blog: "My Poetry"

Written November 17, 2007 I built a wall, around my fragile heart So that no one else could ever tear it apart It's worked for years, keeping the crowd at bay Wanting people close but keeping them away Then the universe sent a curve ball One that was able to walk through that wall Turning my wall from stone to air Making me scared to hurt, scared to care Conflicted and Confused, I don't know what to do My defenses are down, my emotions in a coup Terrified and Fascinated, like a moth to the flame Into that dark night I scream out your name Conflicting emotions float through my mind Should I run away or try to make you mine? My heart and my gut are truly at war I hear you knocking but am scared to go through that door Let you in or drive you away? I want you close, but am afraid you won't stay Can my heart take another blow? All I can do is try to take it slow I want you by my side, night and day What can I do to make you stay?

November 30, 2007 Dedicated to my ex, Julio Cruz I will not break, I will not fall Not this time, you will not have it all I gave you my heart, mind, body & soul You have slowly tried to turn it to coal Slowly I'm getting smarter, getting wise I am trying my damnedest to not believe your lies You ripped out my heart, time and again When all I ever wanted was to be your friend I'm tired of hurting, tired of the pain Tired of your obsessive, asinine game I'm walking away and not looking back Trying to live my life with a little more tact Making wiser choices, keeping my life going right I'm tired of everything being a constant fight Watching this chapter of life as it slowly ends Hope on the horizon, as a new one beings I will hold my head high and walking the path With the knowledge that soon I'll look back and laugh What a fool I have been and a fool I will be But that's just life, that's just me