Cichokitty Senstional on the Sensation's blog: "My Poetry"

She walks slowly along the quiet street cars passing now and then a cigarette between her fingers and music in her ears to the left houses (Spanish style) and swaying palms to the right a body of water rolling lazily along all look quiet peaceful yet all hold their secrets the houses full of closets skeletons secrets the water nurturing life of predator and prey and she holds the secrets of her heart tumultuous emotions sugar sweet and blood red crashing together rolling along on the waves of sadness she stops and sits hoping to draw peace from the river not knowing they are the same full of secrets and hidden passions not yet ready for the world to see

Life Blood Red pumping heart cheerful fun serenity peace Death Blood Red flowing forth days are gone sky grows black NEGLIGENT HOMICIDE Words pouring forth from the mouths of babes Naive and unthinking It wasn't supposed to happen Bread Water Love Life is maintained by these The killing of a heart body goes limp INVOLUNTARY MANSLAUGHTER Words crash against each other Hearts break like expensive china thrown at the husband for emphasis Blood red emotions departing in a painful flow from the broken heart of another Did I do that How was I to know of the consequences of simple truths INVOLUNTARY MANSLAUGHTER

Something stirring deep inside in my heart? my stomach? I don't know something stirring something I couldn't even begin to explain or fathom restlessness a longing a push towards greater things something inspirational motivational either or neither a feeling in my chest affecting my brain dreams maybe definitely a longing longing for something lost? something old? or looking forward? towards the future a feeling so familiar yet surprisingly new amazement wonder questioning looking for answers for something solid something to feed my soul trying to grab hold grasp the meaning the why where and how of this thing, but I can't I just know this feeling amazing and beautiful will push me forward take me back back to my beginnings give me some peace of mind and something to work for to live for to love Me Myself and I 2002

Walking through the door another new opportunity terrified and shy quiet testing the waters before jumping in getting to know people slowly letting them in into her life and loves her stories what she's seen who she is until finally she feels able to open her mouth like a store room that's been locked up tight for years and hearing the unrehearsed squeak of the hinges as the door slowly opens to let out a flow of surprisingly fresh air all of a sudden the tides change mother moon moves in her orb and the girl you once saw as shy sweet and maybe a bit naive is transformed before your eyes you can't get her to shut up sit still and things you've only fantasized about are spewing from her child-like face all of a sudden you see the adult in her though that woman has been hidden behind eyes deep as sweet and brown as molasses you can see her sexual prowess now and when she dances she shows a dream of sensual pleasures without end without tiring insatiable hunger thirst for new experiences but here's the point you finally start to see to understand now you enjoy her company and her oddly entertaining way this woman child has captured your heart with a sweet absurdity you've not seen before she gets used to you you get used to her you wake up one morning and she's gone disappeared into thin air and you're left with only promises of further communication that never happen because she's moved on to a new life a new city new people new faces walking through the door another new opportunity terrified shy and quiet and the vicious cycle of her life begins again 2002

The trees swimming around each other The river rushing towards the sky Even the mountains melting together all these unnatural sights as if the spinning in my brain is affecting the wayI see the world you're running around in my mind like a marathon champion and there is no way to stop it How Why When Where How did you get so deep inside Why can't this be easier When will I see you again Where will that magic moment be I want so badly to wrap you in my arms right here right now I want to feel you next to me The sun on our faces the grass on our backs The sand between our toes the trees rising around us The sky within easy reach the sea miles below The sheets tangled around our bodies Your voice in my ear and your eyes piercing my soul with every breath You don't even know what you're doing to me and I couldn't tell you how what's done is done and here I am in my life waiting wanting hoping more than anything to see you talk to you hold you again My beautiful soul remember these words as I will "Don't break my heart" Kochamcie Kitty Kat '2001'

How pompous and arrogant to think myself beautiful Now sitting on the sidelines I see beauty in its fullest Beautiful body Trance-like movements graceful and endearing Pulling the eye Searching the soul Invading the heart The pure essence of all that is creative I watch from my lonely perch and hope for the opportunity To compete To strive for such beauty excellence and grace. For Jamie Delgrosso one of the most gorgeous dancers I've ever known Summer of 2000