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In my own mind with my own thoughts I am alone
fear and anxiety I have, but is never shown
My smile, my eyes, do nothing but hide
Behind an idea that I am fine
Death and destruction all I know
Love and compassion I am not shown
I walk around with a smile, for the world to see
Though I am not free
Depression, sadness, and anger is all I see
I bare this cross due to my choices in life
Though no one will ever see my personal strife
To myself I keep, I do not want others to see
What really lays beneath this façade, what is real
A broken person, a broken heart
Joy and happiness I do not feel
The loving touch of a woman, I wish I can steal
though I know it will never be for real
seems no one can love and care
for someone that can only scare
only thing I can count on to be there
is another day full of loneliness and despair
As another summer comes along
as kids we used to sing songs of joy
Parents planning vacations parties and trips to the pool
We normally do not think of why we have the freedoms we do
all we thought about is how and what to do
on the days we have off from work or school
Maybe how the days will turn from cold to hot
And how to stay cool
As a soldier I think about those that gave their lives
I remember the look in their eyes
when it was said we have to go
we have to say bye to our families and friends
I made new friends that became family
Though some of that did not come home unfortunately
I think to myself, and end up in tears
Just knowing that my extended family is no longer here
to enjoy the long and lazy summer days
this month, the 27th of may
marks another year I won’t hear the voice
A brother or sister in arms
All because they made a choice
TO server and protect those they do not know
I know I will do what I can to show
my pride and how grateful I am just to know
A hero that gave their life to make a better world
for you and me, and everyone else in this scary place
I ask you to look their families in the face
and salute them for giving their loved ones in your place
to Protect you and me
So we may see another day
And remember those who paid the price
Honor the sacrifice the families made
to make sure you live in peace
Remember and honor the hero’s that lost their life
and don’t let their go in vain and strif
A gift given so precious and fragile
She grows in you, you become to feel
the heart beat from this baby, your heart she steels...
Every day you fall more in love, you cant wait
For the first time you hold her and she wakes
Her tiny eyes meet yours, The happiness the joy
You imagine, Your happiness grows with every day
your belly grows, you feel movement, you cant wait
To see your baby's eyes to have her little fingers
Around yours, as she sleeps
A place in your heart she keeps
Day by day your love grows
Your eyes show, begin to glow
Soon though you feel your love in vain
Someone took something from you
You think how could this be
A child you want so much to see
You mourn and you ponder
Why can this be done, you wonder
A child that never had a chance
To live, to show her love
Anguish and anger you take
Love and compassion away you shove
A broken heart and sadness sets in
You wonder can you be happy again
Friends and family try hard
To bring you up, they show their heart
Keep this in mind, no matter how hard
Your child is still with you, in your mind
In your heart she still lives
the love the compassion she gives
To be happy to move on you think you cant
just try to remember you can
the gift you believe was taken
was not but is still given
You need to open your eyes
And look into the blue skies
You will see your daughter your love
In the clouds above
Shes always, and forever be there
Looking for your arms, your heart
A place home she wishes for,
Your heart she wants to take care
To heal, to see you happy
your heart to make whole
This pain you bear, will soon disappear
in its place, love and happiness will appear
Keep her in your heart and dear
For she needs a home,
She wants your heart to call home.
I wonder though out the US and the world
I have been to Places all around
Looking for a love, that is so profound...
That all my worries are gone, no pain
I sit and play this game
and all I find, turns out to be the same
Heartache and agonay and desolate
Everything I wish I could forget
Every person I meet, I trust
To them I give my heart
but lies and decet I am given
In return for my love, i hurt
I tell myself that someone is out there
I wish on a star, that on day,
I find her somewhere,
I close up and give up
finding a love that is true
For me there is no hope
This how I would cope
then you come, out of nowhere
tell me you think I need a friend
though your love you send
through your actions, and your words
I begin to care, to love
you take my fears, my scares, the tears
You take them and begin to repair
I let you come in, you make yourself at home
The compassion, the careing I am shown
More and more I fall deeper in love
on my mind day and night,
you an angel from above
You have taught me to love
To once again trust fully
My heart your completely
to keep you happy, and content
That is all I worry about
Learning again to love
My heart, never again torn apart
I love you with everything I am
I will show every way I can
protect you from pain and anguish
you I want to see flurish and succed
In everything you do,
I will do what you need
Now and tomorrow, for all of time
I am yours and you are mine.
I wonder in the halls of my mind
What I am looking for, I cannot find
I look into my heart, ...
More and more I get confused and lost
A love that I depspratly need,
Is at this time hard to see
I do not hurt, though I am in fear
I am not sad, there is no tear
Confusion and worry, are all that is here
The pain I have to bare
That of a broken heart,
A love that has come and go
and said theyd never part
The scars left, deep as the soul
Damaged and for ever as two
the days long, the nights, hell I go through
I wonder where did I go wrong
What on earth did I do
Nothing said but sorry, goodby this should be
Why can she not see,
THe love I have is true,
The pain I try to work through
Thoguh always there, never free
I wish she could see
All the pain shes caused me
Did I love to much, to hard, to deep
The answers I cannot see
My heart tuned into stone
never again to love, to be alone
The pain I cannot bare again
the repairs wont begin
Forever tattered and frayed
Going through my day
Many things that I need to do
But on my mind you stay ...
Wondering how you feel,
what challenges confront you
as the day moves on, so slow and long
I cant wait till the day is done
then I can talk to you
to hear your voice, to see your eyes
Through out the day I look to the sky
Wondering to myself, how can this be true
The friendship the love, That comes through
Almost as a dream, if so I don't want to wake
In this dream I want to stay
To see your compassion, your affection
To live without I cannot imagine
What you give, so precious, priceless
That of which I cherish, keep from harm
No matter the danger, I keep in my arms
Safe and protected from all pain
I do so because I want to, nothing to gain
I wish you would only see
Not with your eyes, but with your heart
The friendship never to part
Your struggles, to take as my own
hold you up, happiness shown
To see you happy, not to cry
I will do,and forever try
I want to see you succeed and fly
