A freaky redheaded's blog: "My Poems"

I want to make your heart beat just for me. I want a true love in my lonely life. I've looked a long time, dated many men, But none I walked with walked in step with me. We walk together well, the best of friends. Somehow we just fit, as if clean cut To go together, zigzags complementary. But now I would be something more than friends. I know I take a chance to mention love. I've no idea what feeling's in your heart. But if you'd catch a burning, plunging star, I know I'd make you happy for your love

Just wanted you to know: I love you. Months have passed since we became close friends. Every day I find I'm thinking of you, Though no word from you that message sends. And yet we share all other thoughts and feelings: I cannot wait to tell you of my day, And you give me the gist of all your dealings, Which makes me hope we walk in the same way. Telling you this is opening a door That never can be closed again, and yet I must, because I ache for something more, Something that I must risk all to get. Some night, perhaps, we'll go hang out somewhere; I will reach for you, and you'll be there

I'm sitting in the corner nowhere to run Here comes the silence, there goes the fun Trying to put the pieces back together Knowing that the silence will live on forever Trapped inside with my deepest fears The silence is so strong voices are not clear Hard to fight my way out of this place Wanting to leave the silence without a trace All the bad things go away and be gone For I am left with the silence that lives on

When your heart is broken your whole life fades away slowly but surely but its bound to happen you cry yourself to sleep praying the pain will go away but when the sun rises the pain is still there eating Your heart away I try to stay positive and I try to stay strong but everything is a reminder like our favorite love song the pain is torturing, its killing me softly like the pain from a dagger ripping through my soul I trusted you with my heart but the trust was never repaired I dont know how I can forgive you for all the suffering you've made Lord knows I love you I told you all the time I just wanted you to love me back but that wasnt to be the case this time

So alone in my bed Alone listening to nightly whispers Alone in my thoughts Alone standing in court Alone I stand and fight Alone I pray for rainbow lights Alone in the morning I awake Alone I celebrate my joys Alone I cry out my sadness Alone I voice out my fears Alone in strenght Alone in wealth Alone in good health Alone I try to understand Alone I seek knowledge Alone I share what is mine Alone I try not to be alone Alone when my time has come, I pass away

Mother give me strength Give me wisdom, give me will Give me love, give me health Let me know what is real Tell me who to trust Tell me what is fate Give me the strength to love And the maturity not to hate Let me fall in love Let me have true friends Show me the real meaning Of together until the end Give me the power of prayer Let me have a stable mind Give me the strength to have patience And the strength to be kind Help me stand and fight Don't let me run away Give me the bravery to face my fear And to face another day

Sadness roams free Death decaying Madness alike Dieing again Love is no more Lust brakes free Hatred soon follows Envy strikes all Sadness follows envy Death causes sorrow Madness is a state of mental death Dieing causes one to go mad Love it to let your heart die Lust is love Hatred follows broken lust Envy follows hate In this cycle we all sit Waiting for the next Death to come And take

Fear is a place we go when we don't know fear is the man in the shadows behind that bush or that memory or that time walking in the peace of the streetlights down the sidewalk waiting for fear to jump out grab us and pull us deeper into the metaphor just close your eyes and get lost in the metaphor of blue skies and fearless dreams

Lost in time, Lost in a memory of you and I, How we used to love each other, How you brought happiness into my life, How I knew everything will be okay, Lost in a memory that can not be forgotten or be erased, Ever since you left, I haven’t been the same, You were my childhood sweetheart, Yet you left without a word, You swore that we would be together and forever, Lost in a memory of our childhood, How you and I grew up together, How you kissed me, Yet you stole my first kiss, Love you like no other, Yet you left me but a memory, A memory I shall keep, Looking back at the pictures of you and I makes me cry, Makes me want to try and search for you, Lost in a memory that can not me traced, Or be erased by anyone but you, I will not forget you,

memory floats in oblivion trying to grasp the meaning memory slowly floating away when there is nothing to hold memory going away as the coffin lid is closed memory disappearing from the mind shovels of dirt falling on the lid opening in the darkness memories coming in a rush crying banging no one hearing tears falling to the ground puddles of rain forming around memories of me fading from existence