DJ Twiztedklown's blog: "my poems"

Stretch forth your hand and hold to mine as through this fog we go. Endless as night in a borrowed dream of one lost and deep in sorrow... I see you not and I hear not your voice, and yet I feel you so nearby. It's just a dream - yes, always a dream - unreachable for even you and I... I know that I shall never know why I met you this way. Carrying this cross of burden along knowing that here alone I must stay... I cannot know, nor ever will see why this path I know I need walk. Without you here by my side to touch and never given the chance to talk... I close my eyes now and try to see the reason why you have been. A burning fire, an unquenchable desire and so much more than just a friend... A weight of pure sadness presses my soul and tears flow where I cannot see. For what I've so wanted and couldn't have and what I knew never could be... It was you who would visit my dreams and you were unreachable for me then. I was but a small child when I saw you, but I knew I'd find you, my friend... I was so sure when I was young that when I did find you you'd be mine. The thought never did enter my mind that it would come too late in time... I sit here with tears and cannot think quite clear of what I wanted to say. I just want you to know that I never did doubt, Yes... That I would find you again Someday...

Can't count the miles, you're away from me. Can't count the moments, you're so close to me. Never thought my heart would sound this beat, but heart and thoughts were incomplete : . . . You were not there. How can this be wrong ? This feeling deep inside, so strong. In God's hands, we will share our heart. It never ends, over and over again, a new start. Never knew life could be so tender . . . To this life, to this love, to you, I surrender . . . . . . Now that you are there. Heart and soul body and mind silence and sound to you I send it all sweet and kind with love all around Never thought I could feel this way, this way loved, blessed and sheltered loving, blessing and sheltering, day after day after day, . . . As long as you are there

The face of disappointment reflects back from a blank screen, Faded memories of a love that I had once before seen, Foolish yes, foolish no, never really sure where this person wants to go. I've given my best, I've given my all, and yet in return my heart's left to Fall. A whim and on grace, it's torn from this place that I've hidden before. I can't touch it, can't see it, but please still believe it? What trusts must I be burdened to hold, while my heart grows so cold? No hint of desire, no thoughts to conspire my reverence is forced to behold. Not captive, not free, what place would this be? Not heaven, not earth, not joy and not mirth, Sheer terror, and dread whirl 'round in my head. No warm comforting kisses, no "I love you", no "I miss's" Just bleed me, and lead me around on this string, No consequences, no regrets, no thoughts of effects, Nothing, but fading into shadowy absences. What life is this? What place is this? What feeling is THIS that you share? How do you dare? You dictate my words, the things that you've heard, the choice of my voice, and Yes, my love What right have you? Whose words have commanded from above? Who are you? What are you? Incomprehensibly, the one I love.